Picnic... Haha!!!!

I'm still sick here. Just hate to be sick. Well, actually I shouldn't go to school today, but this smarty school make today is the day to take our form 4 text books. ==

As usual, arrive at school nobody want to talk to me except Danicia. ^^ Always my best partner and best friend. Things went on very normal, kind of boring at first. When we reached the park it was like... WHAT?! I went to this park often since it's just around my area.

By the way, I'm sorry that I didn't bring anything!!!!! My parents went for a dinner yesterday so I can't buy anything the day before this. Most sorry to Ching Chun because I ate her white bread for free, I was very hungry. And sorry to Xiang Yenn that I ate her sandwich for free. T-T But thanks to Shi Yin, Vanessa and Yu Cheng brought UNO cards. We, plus Hooi Nee, played UNO until almost everybody went to the playground. Now left Danicia and I playing it, in a different way. Everybody is so good that they asked both of us to guard the bags for them.

A day is gone by playing around the park. Nothing special but lots of memories together with Danicia. Well, seems like things started to sort out. Hope everything will be ok soon. ^^

Tzu Chi and BIG Disaster!

Again. The whole form 3 went out. Group A is going to Tzu Chi Dialysis Center and their own building for the public-- Jing Tze Tang. And I said it 'proudly' here that I wore the wrong clothing today!!!! >.< Group A should be wearing school uniform today, but seems like I wore something that made me had to be one-day-alien. No!!!!!!!

So just be an alien, and here we are at the dialysis center. The members of Tzu Chi are so passionate. Well, here comes the big drama. They prepare their slide, actually a DVD, to let us know more about their dialysis center. There is a video clip showing about three siblings who live together and help each other. The second eldest brother and the youngest brother both have kidney problems when they are around the teen age. Their father died on an accident, while their mother always go overseas to work. All these situation make them need to take care of themselves. Since both siblings have this problems, they were forced to close the vegetable stall in the market due to can't cope with the time. it's kind of touching. From there I found out that how important our family is. And of course, our lifes.

After the DVD viewing, we went into the dialysis room. As usual, we need to wash our hands to kill the germs. The first patient I saw, oh my god, I know her! She's the one keep asking for donation around my area last time! When I saw her I was kind of shocked or... Astonished?! The scariest thing is I saw the tube she poked it into her viens. It sure IS pain. Well, it's ok. I'm not scared about it but don't know why I almost fainted just now. It was like my heart start pumping so quickly, I blacked out, I asked the teacher for help. Luckily still on time, the members of Tzu Chi helped me a lot. Thanks, I forgot to tell them this. Maybe because I'm sick since yesterday, and I really feel uncomfortable. By the way, heard that my friends said that they saw an old lady doing dialysis. Her blood suddenly stop halfway and fainted! o.O Luckily the nurses are on time to wake her up, if not... You know... She will be gone.

So I waited for my friends to gather. We went to Jing Tze Tang by bus again. It's so pretty! Sorry that I don't have pictures for it. It's japanese style type building. So beautiful! >.< I really appreciated this opportunity to be here. And they were explaining to us about protecting mother Earth. So here are some tips:

1. Don't eat meat! (at least reduce), cause it causes human being need to cut lots of woods to provide space for the animals. Their food need to be prepared and this also cause us to chop down the woods again. The dung and the gas they release are poisonous and it harms the Earth.

2. Reduce the usage of plastic bag and polymer. It realeses acidic gases if it's burned. It can't be dissolve even after 500 years.

This 2 are the biggest points!!!! >.<

After a big presentation by them, I found out (again) that humans just know how to say what they can do, but who really do that? That is the question.

Lastly, I want to let Xiang Yenn know that, I'm not pretending or anything. If you really want to know the truth then ask me. Didn't I tell you that before? Why do you want to hide it? It's not like you. I remember last time you can just put a prank on me and show how much you hated me. But now why? Maybe it's true I say different things to different people. Because I don't know how to express to you guys. I really don't know. I just want everybody to be happy. But seems like it's a big mistake. No, obviously a big mistake. I'm really sorry. So please stop telling people how bad am I, because I think we need to talk. I don't want us to be like that. Please~! I beg you... T-T

Heritage Walk

Phew, what a tiring day. The weather was hotter than usual. Things are getting better and better because it's almost the end of the 21 days-of-bad-luck curse. Seems like Xiang Yenn and I are getting along. Danicia didn't come to school because she is sick, very sick now. Actually me too, best friends always face the same things at the same time.

Heritage walk, ya right. The bus dropped us in front of the Town Hall of Penang, right in front of Padang Kota Lama. The school hired two tour guides to explain how wonderful it is about our Heritage of Penang, achieved by 7th July, 2008, certifited by UNESCO.

We walked pass Dewan Sri Pinang. The tour guide said that the small water fountain outside Dewan Sri Pinang is a historical artifact. It's a gifted monument to Francis Light by the 1st Kapitan of the Chinese, most coming from Fujian and Guangdong, China. Sorry that I didn't have the photos for today's journey because I can't bring camera to school due to I didn't ask for permission. The next monument is just right in front of the Session Court of Penang. It's a monument for Sir Richardson (? I forgot the full name) from the citizens. It's a very artistic monument with the God or Goddess of Greek. Till now the historians are still finding out whether the damages to the monument is mankind destroyment or the God or Goddess of Greek is alike with the monument made long ago. Aren't you curious?

Next it's the historical High Court. Nothing much but just the government built a new section for the High Court. The original one now stood there, silently, with pride and embraces.

After that, we visited the first Catholic Church in Penang. There is a shelter in front of the church. That is a monument built for the lost of Francis Light from his father. The church is in white to represent purity.

Straight away we walked to Kuan Yin Teng which is built by the Fujians and Guangdongs. There is a big well inside the temple. Supposely, it was a well for the public to take some water there in the early ages, but now it is a storeroom. ==

Not to mention that we visited the only shop in Malaysia which produce handmade joysticks! If anyone has Astro, you might know about it. It was shown before on discovery channel.

Walked around the corner and we were out, outside Kuan Yin Teng. Across a little road, there are 6 shops selling flowers. 2 shops on the left are run by Indian-Muslims, another 4 shops are run by Indians. You can see the difference between what type of flowers they use to pray to their Gods.

Everything just passed by. The Indian-Muslim mosque, Khoo Kongsi, SriMariaman Kuil and lastly a place for us to rest. Haha! Some of my friends have the Indian 'red dot' on their foreheads. And the two tour guides meet at a stop to give us a revision about today's heritage walk and a slide plus activity.

After all this tiring walks, it's time for us to go back to school. We eat some junk foods on the bus. So fun~ Our gang everybody is snatching for it. Haha! When we reached school left 10 minutes to school dismissal. We slowly walked into the school and hide somewhere so that we won't get caught by the teachers around. ^^

This day just ended like that. Even thought it was a tiring journey, but I learnt a lot from the tour. I got to speak to foreigners from Germany, Holand and my favourite, Japan~ I found out that Penang is truely a multi-cultural place. I'm proud that we got certified by UNESCO. We should achieved it, actually. Everything is so unique around here. I hope that we, as the citizens can protect and continue the culture our ancestors left for us.

Countdown 21 days of bad luck...

This morning my family and I went for a simple exercise. It's our weekly routine now. At first I wanted to play basketball with my brother but it seems the half court was used by someone else and another half court is all wet due to the heavy rain yesterday.

Before that, we were busying pumping air into the ball. It took us half an hour or so! o.O Well, at least now it can bounce. You know what? My finger touched the mud that stayed on the ball. Thanks to my brother keep playing the ball until it's covered with mud. ==

After a long time brisk walking with my parents, who were keep complaining that I'm not serious about the work out, I went to the basketball court to play basketball. I felt that my brother was kind of lonely so I accompanied him. Again! When I went to pick up the ball, I stepped on a puddle of mud!!!!! >< size="5">

The shop front, Vibrant Life Essentials.
Address: Unknown, only can give you guys some landmarks.
Ground floor of Suntech Building, beside Sunshine Square Bayan Baru or Bayan Baru Market.

Facing: Main entrance of Suntech Building.






A wheelbarrow? o.O Victorian style?








Paris, Paris, Paris. ^^ Italian style?








Haha! So cool~! The shelf~!











Ok, enough for the Westerns now. After we delivered the stocks to her, she mentioned about some shop lots here are selling with reasonable prices. Here are some pictures (again) for the interior design of Suntech Building.

This is the 10th floor for Suntech Building. The 1st till 9th floor is just car park. ^^ So professional~~~~!!!!! >.<







To your left coming out of the lift, it's the Suntech Indoor Cafe. Nice design right? A little Japanese type garden. There is fishes(seems like it's not really Koi fish...) beside the entrance.







There's an entrance for the office on your right u-turn. Classy office they have. ^^








Sauna for this classy, professional office. Small but better than none.

There! The main entrance! If you guys want to have a visit to Suntech Building or want to have a look for the offices inside just look for this. See the SUNTECH sign? There it is. ^^

We used a lot of time here. Slowly the time stirkes 3pm. My mum fetched me to my drum lesson. Bad luck again. I fell down on the stairs. Luckily I didn't sprain my ankle or get hurt anywhere. Practice was a little harder than yesterday's. My teacher was training me for Grade 4. I'm now just a beginner, but I am for 2 years. How unlucky again, I knocked on the 1st tom of the drum set while I was chatting with someone. Argh... I hate this day... T-T

The unlucky staircase where I fell on.








The unlucky drum set that I knocked on. ==

I should be using this drum set! T-T That unlucky drum set. Haiz...







So I went through all these troubles. And finally the end of the day. ==

I'm confused... Help... T-T

I know, I shouldn't had cry that day when all of us went to Gurney. I really don't know everything will be like that. I was really sad, I don't know why. I said I never loved him, but when I loss him, I found out how important he is to me. It's too late, what I can do is I can just express how I feel. I'm sorry that I made all of you guys feel embarrassed and uneasy, I really am sorry.

I'm sure that I forgot about him already. So, please, don't talk about the past in front of me anymore. He is hers already, not mine anymore. I still need some time to totally forget him, but I can let them be together happily.

Even though they are together, she still feel there isn't the feeling of safety. I'm sorry though. It's not that you are their second choice. They just like you, so I hope you don't think too much ok? And I hope you can be strong again. You aren't that weak, you are my admirer you know? I always admire you, I want to be like you. So, please, be strong.

Actually, I know they are going to visit him at Lam Wah Ee Hospital. She didn't ask me to go. At first I thought she didn't invite to hang out with them, so I was a bit angry. But after that I only knew that how much she care for me, I appreciate that. Thank you eldest sister.

Rich VS Poor

As usual, a wake up call from my parents starts my day. Everything is really usual, I got to accept my punishment for using RM100+ for my phone for 2 months. At least today I just got to sweep the floor. Haha! Although it's just a simple housework, I sweat a lot, since my house is two sotries high. ==

Things went so usually until we went for lunch. Mum, brother and I ordered the same food in a hawker center at Sungai Pinang. My brother ordered another plate of noodles over. After a short wait, a little girl, approximately 4 years old served my brother the noodles. My mum smiled at her, it's like she never showed that to me before.

I admit she is cute, but, that smile, it's a different meaning. She said we are living in a very good surrounding. Who doesn't know that?! I mean! What the hell! I knew that ok?! It's like she thinks that we don't know how good we are living... ==

What I think is that, they want us to be like them. Well, even thought they explained to me the whole lunch time, I still think that they just want us to be like them anyway. That's what they wanted most. A useable and a good child. Hate it! Makes me want to be a bad girl more... Just don't understand what we are thinking and hope we can understand what they are saying or what they hope...

Anyway, I'm going out from next omnth onwards. My hair won't stop me from that anymore. Maybe I will wear some Lolitas for some outing. So stay alert if you want to to see me wearing it... (which is not what I'm hoping for... ==) By the way, November 1st I'm going to my primary school's gathering, see you guys there~ ^^

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'Sorry'... it's not the key to everything...

Is it right to let your parents do everything for you? I don't know. My mother is the world most wonderful mum. She always crave for perfection. But... She... Is the cause of my childishness. I don't know how to satisfy them. It feels like we lack of communication. I can do it, just my mum... She seeks for perfection, nothing can satisfy her if it's not her own doing. But my dad... He is the one who keeps commanding me to help my mum. The biggest problem is my mum keep having everything for herself. I was lectured by my dad just now. So not to say, I was angry, of course, but at the meantime, I was blamming my mum. Why can't she let me do it? She is the one who let me been lectured by my dad, she is the one who causes me to be a useless person. How can I satisfy them...?

This morning, I just made up my mind. I quited my ballet. I hate it the most... But seems like my parents are not very happy about that. I know, but I really can't stand this suffering life. Even though I learnt this for 8 years, I can't anymore. I know myself. I know it's impossible for me to learn anymore. The medicine I'm taking now is giving me cramps to my left part of my body. I can't even balanced properly anymore. So, how can I continue without this simple basic? I don't know what are they thinking. After I informed the teacher about this, my parents keep arguing about this. Didn't they know that its hard for me to make this decision? It's not easy to quit something you leanrt for 8 years and if I can I will be graduated after 3 years. How can I... Easily let go this hard work...? Although I don't like it, but this is my hard work, it's still hard for me to let go you know...? Somehow I really need support. I'm really sad about this. Whatever I did, I'm still a loser in my parents' eyes. I lose everything to my elder brother. He is good in almost everything. And my parents said that this is a mental block that prevents me from success for anything. It's not it!!!! Why did they think that I'm useless in everything?! I don't understand! I'll show them how capable I am, I'll show them that I'm not what they think. Plus, I'm not a problematic child! I don't need a psychologist to communicate with me!!!! I'm not a problematic child!!!!! The problem is you!!! You are the ones who give me this concept!!!! It's you you know?!!! How can you parents didn't realise?!!!!

This year is an important year for me though. But seems like everything doesn't go smoothly. My band was disbanded. I can't blame any band members for this. In the opposite way, I got to thank them~ They gave me expereince being in a band. Really thank you. I'll remember you guys. Even though now Yuusuke was away for his further studies in Japan, I'll still remember him. Special thanks to our coach, Ichimura, guitarist Fuyumi and bassist Shou and most importantly, Yuusuke. He taught me how to play the electric guitar. Hope Yuusuke will be good there. All the best ok? Be famous soon~~~

Back to the topic... Well, sometimes I can't really understand my own family. What's wrong with choosing arts stream? I'm not my elder brother ok?! I can't study! Ya... I can't study... I'm just as useless as you guys think... But I'm not going to let go everything here... I'll try my very best to show you, I'm not that weak!!!! Even without you guys I'll live a good life. I hate you guys... I really hate you guys... I'm sorry but I really don't know how to trust and love you parents... And yes, this time, a sorry from either one of us it's not the key to everything...

Last but not least, thanks for my friends' support. I'm now ok~ Hope Hooi Lin is ok now... If not I'll ask XiiaoPang to take care of you ok? ^^ And this is to him... I'm sorry that I hurt you so much. I hope there is still trust in us. I'm sorry... Maybe a sorry is not eveyrthing. But I'm just can say I'm sorry. And I love you...

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