I'm confused... Help... T-T

I know, I shouldn't had cry that day when all of us went to Gurney. I really don't know everything will be like that. I was really sad, I don't know why. I said I never loved him, but when I loss him, I found out how important he is to me. It's too late, what I can do is I can just express how I feel. I'm sorry that I made all of you guys feel embarrassed and uneasy, I really am sorry.

I'm sure that I forgot about him already. So, please, don't talk about the past in front of me anymore. He is hers already, not mine anymore. I still need some time to totally forget him, but I can let them be together happily.

Even though they are together, she still feel there isn't the feeling of safety. I'm sorry though. It's not that you are their second choice. They just like you, so I hope you don't think too much ok? And I hope you can be strong again. You aren't that weak, you are my admirer you know? I always admire you, I want to be like you. So, please, be strong.

Actually, I know they are going to visit him at Lam Wah Ee Hospital. She didn't ask me to go. At first I thought she didn't invite to hang out with them, so I was a bit angry. But after that I only knew that how much she care for me, I appreciate that. Thank you eldest sister.