April's Over- The First Happy Post

As you see my previous post, I wrote about the busy April life I'm going to live. Now, it's all over. ^^ There are the ups and the downs of course. But, I managed to face everything till the end of April.

Well, the beginning of April I was rushing for my Public Speaking, which is important to me, 'cause it's representing the school. Unfortunately, Ms. Jaine had chosen Charissa for the Allocation. I was kinda disappointed actually, but still I was happy for Charissa. ^^ Since the day Ms. Jaine chose us for the competition, we became friends although I don't really like to mix with prefects. XP

On the very day of our school's Sport's Day, Charissa went for the competition. Unfortunately she didn't have a victorious ending for it. XP Whereas me, I was kinda angry that day 'cause I thought Dannie left me alone and went to Katrina's side. Actually, it was just all misunderstandings. Maybe I was jealous back there... XP

During this whole April I was playing Scrabble with Dannie! I almost gone insane by playing it every week! 囧！！！！！！

Throughout the month, here comes Taekwondo examination. I was very confident that I'll get my yellow belt, but who the heck knows that Master straight let me go for the exam with Wei Loon who was a green belt! 囧！！！！！！！！ I was frightened, totally! You can ask Dannie about it. My face went pale and emotionless. It was a big shock! In my heart, there's fear and only fear! I didn't know what to do and just do what I could remember! I did my Kwon-hyo wrongly, obviously! After the exam, I sat down at a corner and caught my breath. But still I was so frightened that my legs went soft and jellified!

Lastly, the tournament... *ta-dah...* I don't like MRSM! They kept pushing people during sparring! HATE IT!!!!!!! I thought I didn't win anything, but who knows, I got bronze for individual sparring and silver for team sparring, thanks to Ms. Red Belt, Clarissa and Vernicia. ^^ By the way, Clarissa got the best female student under 12 big trophy~~~~!!!! Thanks to Clarissa who make CEC glorious~! XDDDDD Unfortunately she went back earleir, if not she will be known throughout the whole SPU group.

And guess what, I got triple promoted~! Haha! XD Now green tip but still need to stand at the back row, 'cause others are higher grade than me... Haiz... Humiliation...

The most horrified news is... Elmo knew we nick-named him as Elmo!!!! 囧！！！！！！ Doom! Maybe even Spider knew... Thanks to Vernicia... Haha! XD It's damn funny to let them know actually. I wish I can see that face when they heard us calling them like that! XD Anyway, I love Taekwondo! I'll put all my focus on it! Go Ashley! XD

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Busy April!

Hello~! Exam week just passed~ I'm so happy! XD Haha! But the thing is I failed for my Physics, which is bad... =.= I don't know how to tell my parents about this... XP But luckily my result wasn't that bad till I can't tell any of them, I guess.

April will be a month full of excitement! Today I just came back from Seberang Perai State Library for the Scrabble Workshop. I found out that it's hard to compete with other school like CLHS (=.=) and CGL. They are really strong in English and they've their own strategy which is really better than PTHS... Haha! XD Well, we'll really got to compete with other schools on 17th April... Haiz... -,- By the way, the national schools are not really good at vocabularies... =.=

There are lots more events await me. Now I'm worrying about Taekwondo exam & tournament + English Public Speaking. Argh... I really need help for all these events. Well, just good luck to my April... And my brother's b'day is around the corner~ ^^

And, nowadays I didn't text Ming. Haiz... Looks like he doesn't want to text me either. I just gonna wait then. I'm kinda busy nowadays too. So, I'll find a time to text him. Ciao~

My Heart Beats

Now is the second day of the exam. To me is nothing difficult 'cause I don't care about exams. XD Well, just hope no red ink in my report card, but I think I'll fail my Add Maths. XP Well, just got to bear with it until Thurday then it's over~! XD

By the way, here's a few words for Dannie too. ^^
Dannie, I'm happy that you're so concern about me. Hehe! ^^ As always, you're there for me. Yes, I really really love him. I don't know what makes me like that. I'm also confused by this strange feeling. I think that it's too young for me to fall in love so deeply. I know he maybe doesn't like me, but still I've to try. If he doesn't like me I still want to make him like him in any way. Again, I know love can't be forced, so I'm totally confused. @.@ But, if he still likes me, of course I'm going to go for him. Somehow, I feel that it might last long, sometimes I also think that it mighn't... Haiz... I really don't know how to do... For now, I'm sure I really really love him into the core of my heart. Well, the song... Haha! It's kinda awful actually. XP But it's meaningful to me since it's right from my heart. I wish that you were him, you know? 'Cause you're so close to me, I hope he's so close to me too. Anyway, thanks Dannie~ ^^

Here's a few words for Ming...
Ming, I know you've a girlfriend now. But still I really love you. I don't know why either. However, you don't like me anymore, I'm kinda sure even though you didn't say it. Whenever we talked about us you'll switch the topic such as saying you're playing games or you have something to do. You're so mysterious that I don't know what are you thinking nor what you want. I remeber a few months ago you said you see me as a friend only, but I can't! I'm sorry!! Although we managed to get back together the past few months, the next day is like normal again. Well, I didn't mean to separate you and your girlfriend. I just want you to know that I love you inside my heart. I won't make you and her life miserable. I'll just love you quietly... I tried to forget you but couldn't. Just... Maybe it's wrong to know you...? Or just I'm fated to love you without return... I miss you.

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I'll Never Forget You

Since yesterday I've made up my mind to keep Ming in my heart forever. Although it's a little silly, I love him really much. I don't know what to do other than waiting for him quietly. I know, this is not going to work but still I try, I have faith in him.

About the previous post, when I looked back I laughed! Haha! XD Why did I have that thinking about being jealous and liking him?! What the heck?! Haha haha! XD Well, I swear that'll never happen again. ^^ I only love you my dear, although you don't love me anymore. But still I can't forget and let go of you, I really really really love you. Please stay with me...

By the way, band practice today is still OK. At least don't need to get punished from leader~!!! Haha! XD So, I'll like to share my song to everybody, I did my best to compose it.

对不起宝贝，
打扰你入睡。
对不起宝贝，
因为我太想念在你怀抱里睡。
可是每逢简讯你都不回，让我心碎。
难道我们真的没有挽回的机会？

请你回复吧，我的宝贝！
虽然我知道我不再是你的宝贝，
但请你至少别让我落泪。
我看着那电话没有蓝宝石的光芒，
含泪闭上眼睛，
却无法入睡。

对不起宝贝，
我真的很后悔。
对不起宝贝，
我还是希望你回到我身边。
那沙发让我想起了你那甘甜的水帘。
难道以后我都看不见我思念的那一面？

请你回来吧，我的宝贝！
虽然我不再是你的宝贝，
但请你至少别让我落泪。
我一个人躺在沙发上回味，
含泪闭上眼睛，
却无法入睡。

回顾我们在咖啡店，
你害羞的那个画面。
现在我只能把这些放在心里独自怀念。
人海中发现了你，
却发现这只是一个美丽的错觉。
我依然等着你，希望你回头，握紧我的手。
我答应我一定会永远珍惜我们的爱，
请你不要弃我而离开。

请你回来吧，我的宝贝！
虽然我不再是你的宝贝，
但请你至少别让我落泪。
我一个人躺在沙发上回味，
含泪闭上眼睛，
却无法入睡。

这首歌特别献给我一生中最爱的人。我等着你回来，我相信你有一天会回头看我。我爱你…

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My Heart Pounds Part 2

Well, the previous post I was talking about a boy right? Things didn'treally getalog well with him bu luckily with my help he replied her message and made her laugh by his own joke. ^^ I'm good at all these tricks though~ Maybe that's why Dannie will be happy with me most of the time. I so hope that I born to be a boy... XD Maybe if I'm a boy I can get lots of girls' attraction, who knows? Haha! XD Jus crapping~!

By the way, my brother went for his frisbee competition today, so I'm the one who needs to stay at home and do all the job for tomorrow's Potluck Dinner. Actually what's Potluck? O.o? Where did this word come from? Duh, I'm so curious about it... Can I google it? My friends in Plurk told me that you can search anything by Google, and one cute thing my friend said is... Thanks to Uncle Google~! Hahahahaha!! XDDDD

Today I kept wondering, what's really love? I thought I knew it clearly, 'cause you know, I'm still loving someone in my heart. Suddenly I just couldn't get it. I was frustrated by his messages. Almost all the messages there's always a girl in there. At first I can still stand this frustration, but today, I blast! I don't know why either. It makes me feel like I'm being used! When she's busy only he'll send messages to me. I had enough! I don't want this! Althought I know it's not right to be like that, but I really don't want him to keep talking about that girl! What's going on to me...? I just wanted him to be with me... Maybe...?

Well, now I'm ok already. I'm so selfish. I know he only belongs to her but yet I still want to snatch it over. Maybe just something's wrong with me just now. Haha! XD I'm used to be alone. Well actually I'm not alone. I have Dannie, music, arts, taekwando and all sorts of weird stuffs that can spare my free time. ^^ I don't have to think so much. Hehe! ^^ Just for now I'm scared that if I continue to rely on him I might fall for him, which I don't want it to happen!!!!

Now, I just need to think that he's just a friend, don't expect anything from him. I just keep this mind set and keep the guy in my heart forever in place. I'll never ever lose focus of him anymore. I'm not going to fall for any other guys anymore. I only have him in my heart, one and only. I'll wait... I just need to keep my eyes and my heart, literally close, that's all I got to do. Good luck my friend, find your happiness.

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My Heart Pounds

Taekwando lesson on Wednesday is awful. Master was training our strength on our stomach. I know that part is important for fighters like me. It's better to be painful now to gain achievements on free-sparing. Haha! XD But my stomach muscle really hurts after the intensive training on our body muscle.

Recently I have new friends. I know Carissa, who is my senior in Taekwando but younger than me in terms of age... =.= Guess what, she's Heryeong's cousin!!!! 囧！！！！！！！！！ This is insane! Finally, I believe that Penang is small. Well, not to mention, talking about Heryeong makes me think of Linghan... =.= Carissa knows who is Linghan you know?! Which makes me speechless and no comment. When Carissa told me this I was speechless and remained silence for a few seconds with my mouth wide opened! 囧！ Yes, this expression really reflects my facial expression that day. By the way, Spider is really weird. He never yell at me before. Is he afraid of me? O.o! Weirdo... =.=

Talking about Linghan, he gave my number to a certain guy recently. Well, seems like it's not that bad. We can chat along. We shared lots of things. About our family, our problems and our love problems of course. I told him about Ming, which makes me feel like crying to miss him so much... Well, just got to slowly forget this guy who is in my heart. I'll just keep him as a good memory deep down my heart.

For him, he liked a 15-year-old girl, who studies in PCGHS for 2 months. Seems like that girl doesn't notice him a lot. I'm trying to help him out with that problem. Haha! XD But don't know why I just envy him that he can like someone, and I envy that girl who can be loved by a gentleman. Haiz... How long had I been searching for this romance, but still it slipped away... Although I really envy them, I feel very happy for him that now that girl kinda notice him. She replied his messages and accepted his love for her. So, keep up a good work to get her heart buddy~! ^^ I'll wait for that moment! XD

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Taekwan . Gurney

Yesterday's Taekwando wasn't as bad as I thought. The Elmo didn't bother me anymore~ Which is good! But he keep blocking my way... =.= Hate it... The bad thing is, the whole lesson is about side kick! I stood there for 5 minutes each leg! And then need to carry Danicia's leg each on my shoulder for 5 minutes! And now today, my muscle are all kinda painful...

Today just went out with Dannie~! Which is our first time going out, only the two of us~ ^^ Fun and exciting! Finally privacy for us. We reached there quite early, so we went to Coffee Bean to have a drink, which is only me drinking my favorite Mocha Ice-blended. XD We sat there until lunch time. Dannie said that she loves me though O.o which made me kinda blushed! And she mean it! *blsuhed*!

We wanted to watch Alice In Wonderland, but 'cause it's holiday now, the queue is damn long!!!! So we decided not to watch... Haiz... We searched for some CDs in Speedy, then searched for Katrina's and Shalon's birthday present, which we promised long ago! We found Katrina's~! ^^ Will give it to her when school starts. We couldn't find Shalon's... Sorry Shalon! Your Prince of Tennis is really hard to find in Gurney's market... =(

Of course, never forget about mine~ I bought an earring which I was searching a long time! But too bad that we couldn't buy a pair for our friendship earring... =( Hope we can find it other days... We ate at Chopper Board, lots of people were looking at us, which is very weird and made us feel uneasy! Especially boys... =.= Well, who cares...?

And, guess what, we saw our Biology teacher! What a fate! Haha! XD Ok, our day just ended here. Hope to go out with others together next time~! ^^

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