My Heart Pounds Part 2

Well, the previous post I was talking about a boy right? Things didn'treally getalog well with him bu luckily with my help he replied her message and made her laugh by his own joke. ^^ I'm good at all these tricks though~ Maybe that's why Dannie will be happy with me most of the time. I so hope that I born to be a boy... XD Maybe if I'm a boy I can get lots of girls' attraction, who knows? Haha! XD Jus crapping~!

By the way, my brother went for his frisbee competition today, so I'm the one who needs to stay at home and do all the job for tomorrow's Potluck Dinner. Actually what's Potluck? O.o? Where did this word come from? Duh, I'm so curious about it... Can I google it? My friends in Plurk told me that you can search anything by Google, and one cute thing my friend said is... Thanks to Uncle Google~! Hahahahaha!! XDDDD

Today I kept wondering, what's really love? I thought I knew it clearly, 'cause you know, I'm still loving someone in my heart. Suddenly I just couldn't get it. I was frustrated by his messages. Almost all the messages there's always a girl in there. At first I can still stand this frustration, but today, I blast! I don't know why either. It makes me feel like I'm being used! When she's busy only he'll send messages to me. I had enough! I don't want this! Althought I know it's not right to be like that, but I really don't want him to keep talking about that girl! What's going on to me...? I just wanted him to be with me... Maybe...?

Well, now I'm ok already. I'm so selfish. I know he only belongs to her but yet I still want to snatch it over. Maybe just something's wrong with me just now. Haha! XD I'm used to be alone. Well actually I'm not alone. I have Dannie, music, arts, taekwando and all sorts of weird stuffs that can spare my free time. ^^ I don't have to think so much. Hehe! ^^ Just for now I'm scared that if I continue to rely on him I might fall for him, which I don't want it to happen!!!!

Now, I just need to think that he's just a friend, don't expect anything from him. I just keep this mind set and keep the guy in my heart forever in place. I'll never ever lose focus of him anymore. I'm not going to fall for any other guys anymore. I only have him in my heart, one and only. I'll wait... I just need to keep my eyes and my heart, literally close, that's all I got to do. Good luck my friend, find your happiness.

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