I'm Sorry Teacher

Nowadays lots of things to write. Haha! Recently I joined the Taekwando Club, which is fun~! But with the existence of those black-belt boys are ruining the whole lesson!!! Angry and annoyed!!!!

Yesterday night at the lesson is kinda fun 'cause I got to stand with the senior belts~~~ ^^Which means I can stand behind Danicia. ^^ Oh yes~ Most importantly, to sense the aura between KaiSheng the Spider and Danicia~~ Haha! XD Parents~~~!!!!!!! Now, I think they won't look down on me anymore! Standing with the seniors might make them astonished~ eh? Feel so happy to make them shock like that!

The bad thing is... I only know the patterns until Tousam, which makes me feel bad to stand with the seniors... But the master still ask me to slowly follow the seniors... Haiz... But I still can follow a little. This I must thanks to Danicia. ^^



However, some I still don't know how to do when I can't peep to the side. xP When I turn around and guess what... I saw that stupid Spider!!!! While the master is asking me to make a circualr block, he started doing the Jiisam pattern at corner but right in front of me! How dare of him!!! Trying to embarrass me like saying me don't know how to do anything but still mix with the senior belts. I know you are black belt ok?! Don't show off!!!! I hate him and that Elmo!!!!

Today during Chemistry lesson, the teacher looks angry plus sadness in her eyes. Yesterday her lecturer came to school to mark her. You know, her performance wasn't that good yesterday 'cause this the concept is hard to understand. Although I know how she feels, she doesn't need to ask us to stand and get lectured by her right? It's kinda unreasonable. The students really don't understand. She can't blame us actually. Well, she is kinda impatient. Eventhough, I admit she is not a very good teacher, I still hope she can be a teacher. I almost cried thinking about it. I feel sympathy for her.

What I wanted to say is... I'm sorry teacher. I know you've a hard time teaching us, but we really don't understand your teachings. Although you feel impatient and difficult to teach us, we want you to learn from us. As you said, we learn from each other and I respect you. Really! I really respect you 'cause you have even more patient than me! Haha! XD By the way, thanks teacher that you make me understand the concept in class today. ^^ Good luck and all the best to you teacher~ Hope you can graduate! ^^

-馨_Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

The Words of My Heart

The purpose I want to write today is to tell this to everyone about this real-life story. It's so urgent that I wanted to share so much about this to everyone until I rushed home to write this post. I hope most parents will read this to know what your children are thinking. I mean some and maybe.

Dear parents,
Today I went to school only RM10 in my purse. I still can survive for sure, but things are getting expensive and the school needs us to pay lots of fees. Although I'm done with the school fees and most of the exercise books and paper copies' fees. I still don't have enough money to pay for the books for Chinese Literature. It costs RM26. As you know, I only left RM10. What can I do?

I told my class's treasurer that I'll pay after Chinese New Year. There's a reason for this that I told her that I'll pay so late. Seems like she's kinda pissed or something. Well, if it's me I'll feel like that too. She already waited for us so long to pay, and now I don't have the money yet. Plus, it's dangerous to hold on to the money eerywhere for so long. The teacher is also waiting for the money. Luckily, my teacher is the type of person who is still thinking logically and considerate. ^^

Now I tell you why I said that I'll pay after the Chinese New Year. Yesterday my dad said that he wanted to look at our spendings' record. I'm delighted and all ready for it. But who knows, suddenly fate wanted them to meet with their business clients. Everything just turned into a dream. I waited but only darkness, they were still not home. They should've gave us our allowance since the first day of the month. And look now what is the date? So it's better not to make a promise that I might not make it. Isn't it?

The second thing I'm writing it's about my best friend. I hope she can read this.

Dear friend,

This half-bottom post is for you and your parents. Today you cried to me, saying that no more drum in your life. I feel sory for that but I can do nothing. Plus you know I'm not good in comforting sad people. Haha! XD

You said you got to hate drum. But I don't agree with you. I don't want to explain to you at school 'cause I know if I explain to you on that moment you'll get even more upset and feel everything is unlogicable. To tell you the truth I think you shouldn't hate it. If you love it so much then why not learn it when you have your own money and staying away from your parents? Things are never too late. ^^

However, as your parents, they shouldn't break their promises as well. Maybe they just couldn't afford or they don't really agree to let you learn drum. Somehow I think they're afraid that you might get influenced by those punks in my world in the bands. Although they're worried for you, they should set you free to learn and chase your dreams, unleash your talent in drum.

I hope your parents realize that keeping your inside like a little flower is not going to help you. You have to brave every challenges in your life someday. They couldn't just tie you in their arms and be an obedient kid forever. Everyone has their dreams and things they wanted to do so much. It's like the air pressure, if you keep it, one fine day it'll just blast!

I know most of the parents now treat their children like that. Actually I read an article about parents being strict and all sorts of strange behaviour towards thier children. That's because when they were kids, they couldn't grant thier parents' wish. They regreted and so they hope we don't make the same mistake. Conclusion, this is caused by the environment and education of the family.

Today, I wanted to say sorry and thanks to lots of people. Actually I was thinking of how to confront you, but I couldn't speak up 'cause I did something sorry to you. I'm really sorry and hope you can speak up to me. I know you keep looking at me. Do you have the same thinking as me? If yes, please, lets talk it out. I wish we can be friends again.

Ok, I'm going to Taekwando class now. So I'll write till here. If anyone have something bother them I'm willing to help.

-馨_Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

The perfect outing today

Actually today I'm not supposed to go out. I lied to my mum that I'm going out with my friends and because I forgot the date with them together so it becomes a last minute date. ^^ Well, it's better to inform them, at least... ==

I went to the bus stop in Sungai Nibong by taxi. It's kind of scary because suddenly my phone isn't functioning!! o.O!!! It really freaks me out!! When I reached the bus station, I paid immediately and get down of the taxi.

I met Jiun Hau there since we are going to be on the same bus plus my parents need me to find someone to accompany me along the journey. Well, of couse I got to be thankful that he willing to accompany me. ^^

Reached Prangin without 为仁. It's ok to wait him. Even though I waited him for more than 1 hour, it worths it when you wait for someone you really love right? ^^ Even though Jiun Hau said that I'm so stupid to wait for a boy, I can only smile. I know that most of the time boys shoudn't let the girls wait, but I think it doesn't matter. Although when Jiun Hau said that I was crying a little, but everything is ok after a moment.

During the whole hanging out today it's kind of boring because he keep following me behind... == But in the end everything changed. Amazingly... ^^

Hapennings Between Mid Nov and Beginning of Dec

Actually I'm back quite a long time. After the break up everything just went out as usual. It won't affect me. But, seems like the break up with Ming it's getting me headache! I cried because of this two guys, what am I doing?! It doesn't worth it! Anyway, after the two big break up, I'm feeling free. But now I'm with Jin, a simple relationship.

And thanks to Jiun Hau to stay by me when I'm in a bad condition recently. Before that, I was in a business trip with my parents. It went on smoothly even though no experts were following us. Actually one of them had his car broke down, so can't help it because it was a major problem!

Well, seems like I'm in my career now. Plus suddenly Ling Han asked me to cooperate with him in music. Ok, I agree with him. But it's so hard to get a song right! Argh!!!!!! 囧 Anyway, if someone can help me then please!!!!! My head is full of my band's songs and Vampire Knight's Original Soundtrack!!!!!!

Nice isn't it? This is the fish village that my mum's brother-in-law's family lives~ Cooling and... I don't know. It's just nice~~~!!!!!! And there's a cat looks like garfield. But the cat ate my fish!!! Stupid cat... ==

On the way to visit my grandma, we saved a kingfisher, but seems like it can heal itself on the way cause it flew away by itself when we put him on the ground of a park. And unfortunately my grandma went outstation by herself so too bad for my parents. I don't even want to see them. I don't like my mum's family accept her sisters but not her brother... == Their family always bring problems that make me sick... No offense but this is the truth.

Lastly, I love you 仁... ^^

War Museum and Aquarium

Guess what? Today I went to school again. Congrats that I can go to school, even sicker now. Today my dad don't need to go to work so he sleep like a pig until 6.30am. I don't like to see him like that, I feel like want to sleep too. T-T

Reached school and there you go. The teacher asks a sick person to count the chopsticks for every bag with different numbers of packets of noodles. Everything goes perfectly fine until they start giving out the noodles. As I thought, not enough chopstick! Well, got to blame myself for not paying attention counting the chopsticks.

Here we are at the War Museum on Batu Maung Hills. I been here before when I was in Standard Six. But the thing is, I didn't expect that this trip gives me creeps more than last time! The photos our friends snapped, almost all the places for torturing by Japanese were kind of... Haunted! I don't want to talk about it anymore. It really gives me the creeps here.

Next, the aquarium. Well, not much here. I been here before too. It;s not what I expected. We only get to go outside of it and the big aquarium inside. No more interior sight-seeing. What a waste. The inside is really exciting.

When we are back into the school compound, we do some researches on the photos we snapped at the War Museum. Now, it really gives me the creeps. But I got to tell myself it's just illusions. And, things are getting well between me and Xiang Yenn. I hope it's going to be better. Hope everything is real. ^^

Picnic... Haha!!!!

I'm still sick here. Just hate to be sick. Well, actually I shouldn't go to school today, but this smarty school make today is the day to take our form 4 text books. ==

As usual, arrive at school nobody want to talk to me except Danicia. ^^ Always my best partner and best friend. Things went on very normal, kind of boring at first. When we reached the park it was like... WHAT?! I went to this park often since it's just around my area.

By the way, I'm sorry that I didn't bring anything!!!!! My parents went for a dinner yesterday so I can't buy anything the day before this. Most sorry to Ching Chun because I ate her white bread for free, I was very hungry. And sorry to Xiang Yenn that I ate her sandwich for free. T-T But thanks to Shi Yin, Vanessa and Yu Cheng brought UNO cards. We, plus Hooi Nee, played UNO until almost everybody went to the playground. Now left Danicia and I playing it, in a different way. Everybody is so good that they asked both of us to guard the bags for them.

A day is gone by playing around the park. Nothing special but lots of memories together with Danicia. Well, seems like things started to sort out. Hope everything will be ok soon. ^^

Tzu Chi and BIG Disaster!

Again. The whole form 3 went out. Group A is going to Tzu Chi Dialysis Center and their own building for the public-- Jing Tze Tang. And I said it 'proudly' here that I wore the wrong clothing today!!!! >.< Group A should be wearing school uniform today, but seems like I wore something that made me had to be one-day-alien. No!!!!!!!

So just be an alien, and here we are at the dialysis center. The members of Tzu Chi are so passionate. Well, here comes the big drama. They prepare their slide, actually a DVD, to let us know more about their dialysis center. There is a video clip showing about three siblings who live together and help each other. The second eldest brother and the youngest brother both have kidney problems when they are around the teen age. Their father died on an accident, while their mother always go overseas to work. All these situation make them need to take care of themselves. Since both siblings have this problems, they were forced to close the vegetable stall in the market due to can't cope with the time. it's kind of touching. From there I found out that how important our family is. And of course, our lifes.

After the DVD viewing, we went into the dialysis room. As usual, we need to wash our hands to kill the germs. The first patient I saw, oh my god, I know her! She's the one keep asking for donation around my area last time! When I saw her I was kind of shocked or... Astonished?! The scariest thing is I saw the tube she poked it into her viens. It sure IS pain. Well, it's ok. I'm not scared about it but don't know why I almost fainted just now. It was like my heart start pumping so quickly, I blacked out, I asked the teacher for help. Luckily still on time, the members of Tzu Chi helped me a lot. Thanks, I forgot to tell them this. Maybe because I'm sick since yesterday, and I really feel uncomfortable. By the way, heard that my friends said that they saw an old lady doing dialysis. Her blood suddenly stop halfway and fainted! o.O Luckily the nurses are on time to wake her up, if not... You know... She will be gone.

So I waited for my friends to gather. We went to Jing Tze Tang by bus again. It's so pretty! Sorry that I don't have pictures for it. It's japanese style type building. So beautiful! >.< I really appreciated this opportunity to be here. And they were explaining to us about protecting mother Earth. So here are some tips:

1. Don't eat meat! (at least reduce), cause it causes human being need to cut lots of woods to provide space for the animals. Their food need to be prepared and this also cause us to chop down the woods again. The dung and the gas they release are poisonous and it harms the Earth.

2. Reduce the usage of plastic bag and polymer. It realeses acidic gases if it's burned. It can't be dissolve even after 500 years.

This 2 are the biggest points!!!! >.<

After a big presentation by them, I found out (again) that humans just know how to say what they can do, but who really do that? That is the question.

Lastly, I want to let Xiang Yenn know that, I'm not pretending or anything. If you really want to know the truth then ask me. Didn't I tell you that before? Why do you want to hide it? It's not like you. I remember last time you can just put a prank on me and show how much you hated me. But now why? Maybe it's true I say different things to different people. Because I don't know how to express to you guys. I really don't know. I just want everybody to be happy. But seems like it's a big mistake. No, obviously a big mistake. I'm really sorry. So please stop telling people how bad am I, because I think we need to talk. I don't want us to be like that. Please~! I beg you... T-T