An Enjoyable Lie... Exam!!!!!!

Lots of things happened yesterday. I can't write it on time because of recent exams which makes me running wild around piles of books. Anyway, just want to share what happened yesterday here~

It was exciting to hang out with friends for the first time this year. To tell you the truth, I didn't tell my parents about it. In fact, I told them I was going to Ching Chun's house. If they want to prove it at least I have Ching Chun here with me~ Haha! Anyway, the other two boys which are going out with us had arrived there at 10.15am. I told Ching Chun about it and she rushed out of the house without even drying her hair up! Damn those two, they made us rushed madly.

When I rushed to the bus stop nearby, I was kind of nervous. After a few minutes, 3 buses passed by, and... Where is Ching Chun?!!! I was extremely scared!! I'm alone!!! Suddenly, my phone blinked, since I put my phone into silent mode. It was a number with the prefix 019, a number not in my list. I answered the phone, and a cute, childish voice... Or even angel-like? O.o It's Ching Chun!!!! She said she arrived the bus stop, but I didn't see her!!!! That was the frightening part! Conclusion is... I waited at the wrong bus stop... == I quickly ran to the bus stop, and saw her now~ ^^

Arrived Queensbay... (no excitement...) Started walking, boringly... At first I was excited to see Ching Chun and Jiun Hau~! Haha!!!! They were so cute that day!!! Both of us keep on giving them advices and chances. And... There is once, their hands were so closed!!!! I was hoping for something but unfortunately... Nothing happened... I can't deny that I didn't hold hands with him. Just nervous when I hold his hands for the first time, so I let go his hands for a moment.

After inside the cold cinema, we rushed out to the seaside outside Queensbay Mall. It was warm and cozy~~~!!!! And you know what? Both of them walked together~ For that very moment, I hold hands with him again, for a long time... Somehow feel that I don't want to let go... I'm sorry for that selfishness... After a long time, we decided to leave, and when I went to call Ching Chun, she didn't find me behind her. She talked with Jiun Hau in a very romantic way~ Haha!!!! I'm really impressed~

Ok, it's time for me ti study now... Write till here... ==

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

~Tarot Time~

I opened up this treasure chest of mine, and BOOM! Tarot~~~~!!!!! I'm excited even though I knew it, I just bought it yesterday. Haha! Actually I bought it just because I like the computer graphics created by all these so very talented graphic designers. I so admire their hand work you know? So DAMN pretty!!! (sorry if I have any offend to those who is sensitive about this word) Anyway, it's all just about the graphics...

As I saw this book, is full with the full image of those triumph cards~!!!! Fantastic! Or... fanatic...?! Well, I admit I'm a little too obssesed with it till I bought this with a price of RM25!!! My money~~~~ T-T Gosh!!!!!! I can't even believe that I bought it!!!! Maybe it's the graphic that is pleasing me, or my friend said that she wanted it for a long time and now it's a dream come true, and I borrowed her money to buy for her. And maybe from there, I got influenced easily by her, but I won't blame her for this. Haha! The important thing I got to think now is money can be back any minute if I find it... T-T kind of heart-breaking situation here...

Now if this box of tarot, I read about the stories about these characters of the triumph cards. It's amazing you know? This isn't stories and myths! This is HISTORY!!! Is something happening in the golden-ages!!! Interesting to see but just imagine it, how complicated, headache... ARGH!!!!!! T-T Nevermind that... And guess what? It encourages me to know more about history! Don't ask me why but that is the fact! It makes me interested in history! There is lots of them connected to the times in Egypt, Roman Times and The Europe!!

It's telling you how are us, homo sapiens are engage with the universe. No need anybody to say I knew this theory since I was a small girl because I was very obssesed with mstyreious things and discoveries. Especially something magical but true. However people thinks that I'm a strange girl. So somehow I stopped this interest quite long but now here it comes~! Haha! Mad-girl Ashley is revived again~!

Ok, now, if you are that person that supposed to read this, please pay full attention. You know who I am talking about... I know you are still wondering about that thing. Acutally somehow you make me not sure now... Sigh... But I can't do anything about that. I feel guilty to make you feel that somehow. But this is serious problem ok? I think we got to think all over again. I say again, trust is the most important of all in this bond. I'm sorry to make you feel so unsafety and uneasy.

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

I'm sorry although I'm hurt

A note here to say that from this post onwards I'm using English to write my blog. Sorry for those readers who think that it's hard to read or hard to understand. The reason is using English is easier for me because my Mandarin is not that good... Sorry to say that, I know as a Chinese we shouldn't be weak in Chinese but that is the fact! My Mandarin is so bad!

Ok... Back to the topic... Today is extremely HURT!!! DAMN HURT!!!!!!!! T-T But I can't do anything about it. Even though I shouted aloud to the whole world, it remians the same until he appears. Don't ask me why, but somehow it's very magical. I'm also shocked to realise that everytime.

But when today I just knew about what they did at school on Wednesday. I know it's wrong to say her like that. I know, to you they are the worst. I know that you hate people to call you by that, but they can't because of this and give me another nickname?! And that is a very rude nickname you know?! Even though I have a useless left hand, I have confident that I am better than you! Especially YOU! You said we are close friends yesterday! But how can you hurt your close friend in this manner?! And this is nothing to say as a joke!!!!! Most importantly, you guys can't hurt my friends!!!!!!! This is a serious mistake!!!!!! If you guys still hurting any of my friends, I will never let you off the hook easily! But this time I will forgive you guys, because they said they don't mind now. But if I caught it red handed another time, I will kill any of you...

Because of this, I quarrelled with him. I know I can't blame everything on him. I'm sorry that I'm acting incredibly childish and fired-up. Maybe it's because I can't accept it, but I was trying to hide that feeling from my friends so that they won't be worry about this. From here, I found out how hard is it just to pretend to be smiling in front of my friends while I'm hurt. If I make my friends worry then I'm not a good friend. Even though friends are the ones who share the same feelings with us, but I think it's not it! But Danicia, if you are reading this, don't feel uneasy because I'm always here for you, I will be stronger and stronger.

After the quarrel, I found out that it's hard to leave you. Even though I'm angry, but I'm unable to treat you as usual. I don't know the reason, just know that you are a special person. Whenever I'm in a bad situation, you stand by me and the only person can make me settle down. Erm... I think my friends can do that too... But the feeling is different. Just can't find a suitable way to tell you or explain it. Anyway, hope you can understand...

Last but not least~ There is a good news to my friends. As you guys knew about my left hand. Now is curable~! Hehe! I'm thankful to the doctors who are in charged of this and the research on this. Most importantly, friends and family who support all the way~ I'm sorry for being a disturbance to everybody, from right now I will move forward and prove that I'm someone who can do lots of miracles~

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

惊喜！嘿！

这几天是怎么了？忽然，一。。。二。。。三！碰！！！哇~烟花啊~~~~~！！！囧 眼花了。。。==

一个接一个，在我耳旁吹过。本来是秘密，后来还是爆料了。。。太“好”了！！！呵呵呵。。。== 为什么你们到现在才告诉我？！！！！都已经三个星期了，现在才告诉你这个好朋友？！！！算了。。。反正我也隐瞒着你们嘛。。。==

不过！恭喜我们的清纯同学哦~~ ^^ 真的好兴奋哦~~~~！！！哈哈！！你要感谢我介绍给你哦~~~！！！！哈哈哈哈！！！！

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

一举两得，可能吧~

白白的过了一星期的假期，不知道星期二的预考要怎么办。。。囧！！！不知道高中医的学生们准备好了没。。。？惟有历史系我没有把握了。。。不过，听说这次的大考不是很容易哦。。。好恐怖。。。对我来说考试就考试了吧，有什么好怕了的呢？又不是第一次了。。。学校也整天考试的，经验多得是乐~ ^^

这里我要声明，陈俊健！觉悟吧~~~~！！我们这次的打赌我一定会赢的！！而且如果是一举两得就好了~部噢过我对他没有感觉嘛。。。==还有。。。大考后还要让他知道我的答复，我还没做好选者啦！！！！囧囧囧囧囧！！！！！！！！！！！！

在此，我也要感谢他大考的最后一天要请我吃顿晚餐，不过我还没问过父母。。。加上我父母很想认识你家人。。。>//_//< 请不要误会，这只是想认识而已，朋友的认识。。。也不要说我因为想太多而有这种想法。。。 今晚，他就会从吉隆坡飞回来~有人陪我玩了~~~！！哈哈！9点正，觉悟吧~！我会整死你！！！xD 喵喵喵喵喵~~~~~~~！！还有刚刚打电话给我的人，对不起哦。。。我正好在冲凉嘞。。。>//_//<

我答应你我会告诉你在哪天我会给你答案，所以我希望你可以等待。一定要等哦！那不然我不要你这个没耐心的好朋友！哼！！xP

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

我不后悔

我答应过，无论我再怎么痛苦，我都会继续走下那条路。你答应我，无论我有多痛苦，你依然会保护着我，陪着我。你陪着我，看着我流泪，你也是第一个看到我流泪的人。可是怎么办？我不知怎么报答，你要的东西我又给不到，我真的对不起你。。。

那天你告诉我，因为我一张照片，让你忽然感觉到自信全都不见了。其实这样我反而更对不起你。。。每次你把我的罪名放在自己的身上，我怀疑你到底能撑到什么时候啊？以后我就会前你很多了，真是的。。。

还有昨晚的事，真是失礼了。。。我不应该不看手机而自己忙着电脑的事。你昨晚因为过于担心我，打给我的家的电话。当我听到你的声音，我还以为发生什么事，因为我打算昨晚电脑的事才联络你，可是你让我感到害怕。从我电话里，我听到你用力挂电话的声音，心里顿时跳得很快。你第二次的电话，我原本想向你道歉，可是我的身体在发抖，眼泪也流到眼角，要说的话也说不出口，好辛苦哦。。。

我那时就知道，如果再等下去可能我会失去你这个好朋友。我提起勇气说声对不起，不过眼泪流不止。我也对不起你再次听到我哭。。。你也不必自责。不过你这样，让我更加了解你也是有这样可怕的一面啦。。。哈哈！你要怎样我无所谓，只要我不会失去一个真心的朋友。。。^^

-馨Don't Speak 被你着迷>孤单<-

命运的安排

对。。。人总是要受安排。。。不过有时。。。怎么去接受也是另外一回事。。。与其在这世上痛苦，不如闭上眼睛离开。。。？一切梦想已告一段落。本小姐也不想放弃，不过这只手。。。怎么办？

至少我遇到了一些有意气的朋友，支持着我。。。哈哈！我感谢你们。。。不过。。。我刚刚好像是让他生气了。。。希望我再打电话给他会没事。。。囧！！！！那我不写了。。。掰掰。。。