I'm sorry although I'm hurt

A note here to say that from this post onwards I'm using English to write my blog. Sorry for those readers who think that it's hard to read or hard to understand. The reason is using English is easier for me because my Mandarin is not that good... Sorry to say that, I know as a Chinese we shouldn't be weak in Chinese but that is the fact! My Mandarin is so bad!

Ok... Back to the topic... Today is extremely HURT!!! DAMN HURT!!!!!!!! T-T But I can't do anything about it. Even though I shouted aloud to the whole world, it remians the same until he appears. Don't ask me why, but somehow it's very magical. I'm also shocked to realise that everytime.

But when today I just knew about what they did at school on Wednesday. I know it's wrong to say her like that. I know, to you they are the worst. I know that you hate people to call you by that, but they can't because of this and give me another nickname?! And that is a very rude nickname you know?! Even though I have a useless left hand, I have confident that I am better than you! Especially YOU! You said we are close friends yesterday! But how can you hurt your close friend in this manner?! And this is nothing to say as a joke!!!!! Most importantly, you guys can't hurt my friends!!!!!!! This is a serious mistake!!!!!! If you guys still hurting any of my friends, I will never let you off the hook easily! But this time I will forgive you guys, because they said they don't mind now. But if I caught it red handed another time, I will kill any of you...

Because of this, I quarrelled with him. I know I can't blame everything on him. I'm sorry that I'm acting incredibly childish and fired-up. Maybe it's because I can't accept it, but I was trying to hide that feeling from my friends so that they won't be worry about this. From here, I found out how hard is it just to pretend to be smiling in front of my friends while I'm hurt. If I make my friends worry then I'm not a good friend. Even though friends are the ones who share the same feelings with us, but I think it's not it! But Danicia, if you are reading this, don't feel uneasy because I'm always here for you, I will be stronger and stronger.

After the quarrel, I found out that it's hard to leave you. Even though I'm angry, but I'm unable to treat you as usual. I don't know the reason, just know that you are a special person. Whenever I'm in a bad situation, you stand by me and the only person can make me settle down. Erm... I think my friends can do that too... But the feeling is different. Just can't find a suitable way to tell you or explain it. Anyway, hope you can understand...

Last but not least~ There is a good news to my friends. As you guys knew about my left hand. Now is curable~! Hehe! I'm thankful to the doctors who are in charged of this and the research on this. Most importantly, friends and family who support all the way~ I'm sorry for being a disturbance to everybody, from right now I will move forward and prove that I'm someone who can do lots of miracles~

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