~A Word A Day~

Today lots of things happened in a day. I went back to Negeri Sembilan again. Well, it doesn't bother me that much. I just sleep throughout the whole journey. ^^

By the way, I heard from my mum about what my uncle commented about me that day when she was talking to him. He said as a family we should give each other to what we need while what we have. He asked me to shut my mum up when needed 'cause I'm quiet... (just in front of the family... ==) And he asked my mum to monitor me not to be such a... Bimbo? I don't know how to say that... Plus he asked me to protect myself 'cause I'm sexy...(?) Well, I don't care. I'm not even what he thinks. -,-

Before we left Johor I remembered what my parents said to me. I do agree with some of the advices. Humans are meant to be enjoying, is yourself who make it complicated and suffering. I realize I'm a person who likes to complicate things up, which makes myself feel that how unfair the world is. Another thing is I found out that my dad really love my mum. Everything he'll stop my mum from doing it and asking us to do it. Well, I hope I can find a husband like my dad, so good, no need to do anything. Haha! XD

Just now we met up with my dad's high school's best friend. He was a naughty in high school times. He didn't study well. Not like my dad. He's a great fighter, independent man. Although he didn't continue his studies after Form 5, now he's a big boss though? Better than my dad. Haha! XD Well, lots of stories between my dad and him. ^^

Tonight is a silent night. Just a bit og the sounds of fireworks. The most annoying voice is... My brother's laughter... == I don't know what happened to him. Maybe he's too bored so it causes my brother to be in a temporary mental disorder? Well, he was checking out my dad. Even my dad shakes his leg can make him laugh like a hyena... == Something has gotten into him. Well, now time to sleep. Tata...

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I Don't Like CNY... ==

I wish everybody a very happy Valentine's Lunar New Year. This year's CNY is a nice date, which is Feb 14th, celebrating it with Valentine's Day. Although it's a romantic new year, I still don't like it. Well, as usual. I don't like new year.

I went back to my dad's hometown. All the relatives neglected me. I called them respectfully, which is the Chinese tradition, but still they don't care about me! Or even not looking at me in the eye. I felt so sad and frustrated about it. Am I really don't belong to this family? Did I do anything wrong to make them treat me this way? I don't know what to do. But thanks to my friends who cheered me up about this. If not, I don't know who to express how I feel. ^^

Well, while I'm writing now I'm now at my grandma's house, lots of things happened. My uncle now is better than a few years back then. He said I'm very pretty, which I think he's just saying it. If I really am I won't be single and forcing myself to be single. Not like someone who has her beauty to make guys fall for her. I admit I'm not pretty. Haha! XD

Just now I went to my aunt's house to pay a visit to her husband's family. It doesn't seem that everything is going as smooth as I thought. I wanted to write this post earlier, but sudden;y my parents asked us to go to their house. Of course I got fed up. So long ago I didn't get to touch the computer. While I had the chance to touch it then things just popped out.

At my aunt's house, I got 'lectured' by my mum with that radioactive expression. My cousin was on Facebook. He was playing Farmville. Lots of people are playing that game, which to me it was very boring... == My mum thought I played Farmville, then I said I didn't. Since she asked me why so I replied that it's boring. What's wrong with that?! I couldn't understand that. You should say what is in your heart! What is so good to hide it?! Well, my conclusion is, keep my mouth shut next time. When I said this sentence, my dad scolded me for not listening to my mum's advice. Whatever, I don't care that much.

Then, they're talking about the steamboat dinner just now. The purpose is to celebrate my uncle's birthday. But my uncle said that if we wanted to celebrate for him then he is not going. Fine, so we went all together with a reason for family gathering. Well, seems like even though we managed to lure him out, he still didn't enjoy the dinner. To tell the truth, it's just the crowd, nobody enjoyed it.

From all the incidents above, I know that this world is full of lies. Even though it's just all those white lies, they're still lies. Well, this world is really pathetic.

By the way, even though my dad's family neglect me, I still enjoyed listening to funny stories from them. One of my uncle shred with us a story. There's once he worked in Heineken. One day, his boss went to Africa. He asked the helper to wash the car for him. Ya, he's good to follow orders. But who knows, he even washed the inside, but with water!! Haha haha!!!! XD

That day, we went to my belated grandma's sister's house. My brother told me that they were asking about his ambition. Well as usual he said he wants to be an author, in Mandarin is 作家. But they thought is 做家, means doing a house! So they were like 'what is that? what is this job about?' Haha!!! So cute~~~!!!!!!! XD

Conclusion, I like my dad's side more than my mum's side.

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What A Word...

School is a place to pour out your emotions. As for today, I'm kinda down. My dad woke up late in the morning. Ya, I think it's his business again which make him like that recently, which I really don't like it... At first we could managed to arrive school on time. However, I asked money from my dad to pay for the fees I haven't pay. So, we went home with my breakfast took away. He decided to prepare himself to work before fetching me to school. He said give him 5 minutes. Ok, I trust for once 'cause this is about out time, not only mine. Seems like I can't trust his time management anymore, I was extremely late! I'm very frustrated about this! I came to school with a dark face...

Today Katrina is absent, which made me feel kinda empty without her. At least I still have Danicia. Just less a friend that's all... The thing is without her the 'gang' really annoyed me this morning (you'll know who I'm talking about). Cleo wasn't that annoying, as usual. Today is another member of the gang came and asked me something. She asked a very weird question. Although it wasn't annoying but it really stucks in my head now! Ya, I'm not a positive person. I'm 'negatively charged'. I just looked happy, but the fact, no... But at least putting up a smile can brighten up my day and brighten up Danicia's. That's why I stay happy. I'm a 'negative' so? You can't say I'm cosing up myself in my own small world. What about you? Keep sticking with the same people. You don't mix around with people in the class. I know, I observed you everyday. You're always lonely when they dumped you alone. You shou;d've admit that you're the one who is alone. I wanted to help you out but seems like the attitude of yours had changed into someone I don't know anymore. You changed a lot. There's nothing I can do to help you out anymore. Keep sticking with them that's all you can do. I don't know you anymore... But what you said this morning I really keep it in the bottom of my heart, I'll remember it. One day I'm going to show you that you're the one who is wrong!

After school I went to the book exhibition with Danicia. I bought a book there. And another book I booked it~! Haha! XD Well, I'm just curious about the books... == haha! XD

Today's Taekwando lesson is the most interesting lesson ever!!!!!!! XD I love it~! And, I stood with the senior belts again~! Haha! XD Today's special...:-Sparing-!!! Haha! XD love it love it love it!!!!!!!!!!! I teamed up with Danicia again, arranged by master. Haha! XD Thanks master~! ^^ Sparing was full of laughter 'cause another senior black belt master taught us 5 techniques of sparing. Before that we were training for the basic sparing. The higher level you go, the more fun it is~! (some kinda hypothesis or conclusion...?) Well, hope I can remember all the techniques though... Next time I can use it for good~ Especially beating up that Spider... ^^ (wicked smile)

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I'm Sorry Teacher

Nowadays lots of things to write. Haha! Recently I joined the Taekwando Club, which is fun~! But with the existence of those black-belt boys are ruining the whole lesson!!! Angry and annoyed!!!!

Yesterday night at the lesson is kinda fun 'cause I got to stand with the senior belts~~~ ^^Which means I can stand behind Danicia. ^^ Oh yes~ Most importantly, to sense the aura between KaiSheng the Spider and Danicia~~ Haha! XD Parents~~~!!!!!!! Now, I think they won't look down on me anymore! Standing with the seniors might make them astonished~ eh? Feel so happy to make them shock like that!

The bad thing is... I only know the patterns until Tousam, which makes me feel bad to stand with the seniors... But the master still ask me to slowly follow the seniors... Haiz... But I still can follow a little. This I must thanks to Danicia. ^^



However, some I still don't know how to do when I can't peep to the side. xP When I turn around and guess what... I saw that stupid Spider!!!! While the master is asking me to make a circualr block, he started doing the Jiisam pattern at corner but right in front of me! How dare of him!!! Trying to embarrass me like saying me don't know how to do anything but still mix with the senior belts. I know you are black belt ok?! Don't show off!!!! I hate him and that Elmo!!!!

Today during Chemistry lesson, the teacher looks angry plus sadness in her eyes. Yesterday her lecturer came to school to mark her. You know, her performance wasn't that good yesterday 'cause this the concept is hard to understand. Although I know how she feels, she doesn't need to ask us to stand and get lectured by her right? It's kinda unreasonable. The students really don't understand. She can't blame us actually. Well, she is kinda impatient. Eventhough, I admit she is not a very good teacher, I still hope she can be a teacher. I almost cried thinking about it. I feel sympathy for her.

What I wanted to say is... I'm sorry teacher. I know you've a hard time teaching us, but we really don't understand your teachings. Although you feel impatient and difficult to teach us, we want you to learn from us. As you said, we learn from each other and I respect you. Really! I really respect you 'cause you have even more patient than me! Haha! XD By the way, thanks teacher that you make me understand the concept in class today. ^^ Good luck and all the best to you teacher~ Hope you can graduate! ^^

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The Words of My Heart

The purpose I want to write today is to tell this to everyone about this real-life story. It's so urgent that I wanted to share so much about this to everyone until I rushed home to write this post. I hope most parents will read this to know what your children are thinking. I mean some and maybe.

Dear parents,
Today I went to school only RM10 in my purse. I still can survive for sure, but things are getting expensive and the school needs us to pay lots of fees. Although I'm done with the school fees and most of the exercise books and paper copies' fees. I still don't have enough money to pay for the books for Chinese Literature. It costs RM26. As you know, I only left RM10. What can I do?

I told my class's treasurer that I'll pay after Chinese New Year. There's a reason for this that I told her that I'll pay so late. Seems like she's kinda pissed or something. Well, if it's me I'll feel like that too. She already waited for us so long to pay, and now I don't have the money yet. Plus, it's dangerous to hold on to the money eerywhere for so long. The teacher is also waiting for the money. Luckily, my teacher is the type of person who is still thinking logically and considerate. ^^

Now I tell you why I said that I'll pay after the Chinese New Year. Yesterday my dad said that he wanted to look at our spendings' record. I'm delighted and all ready for it. But who knows, suddenly fate wanted them to meet with their business clients. Everything just turned into a dream. I waited but only darkness, they were still not home. They should've gave us our allowance since the first day of the month. And look now what is the date? So it's better not to make a promise that I might not make it. Isn't it?

The second thing I'm writing it's about my best friend. I hope she can read this.

Dear friend,

This half-bottom post is for you and your parents. Today you cried to me, saying that no more drum in your life. I feel sory for that but I can do nothing. Plus you know I'm not good in comforting sad people. Haha! XD

You said you got to hate drum. But I don't agree with you. I don't want to explain to you at school 'cause I know if I explain to you on that moment you'll get even more upset and feel everything is unlogicable. To tell you the truth I think you shouldn't hate it. If you love it so much then why not learn it when you have your own money and staying away from your parents? Things are never too late. ^^

However, as your parents, they shouldn't break their promises as well. Maybe they just couldn't afford or they don't really agree to let you learn drum. Somehow I think they're afraid that you might get influenced by those punks in my world in the bands. Although they're worried for you, they should set you free to learn and chase your dreams, unleash your talent in drum.

I hope your parents realize that keeping your inside like a little flower is not going to help you. You have to brave every challenges in your life someday. They couldn't just tie you in their arms and be an obedient kid forever. Everyone has their dreams and things they wanted to do so much. It's like the air pressure, if you keep it, one fine day it'll just blast!

I know most of the parents now treat their children like that. Actually I read an article about parents being strict and all sorts of strange behaviour towards thier children. That's because when they were kids, they couldn't grant thier parents' wish. They regreted and so they hope we don't make the same mistake. Conclusion, this is caused by the environment and education of the family.

Today, I wanted to say sorry and thanks to lots of people. Actually I was thinking of how to confront you, but I couldn't speak up 'cause I did something sorry to you. I'm really sorry and hope you can speak up to me. I know you keep looking at me. Do you have the same thinking as me? If yes, please, lets talk it out. I wish we can be friends again.

Ok, I'm going to Taekwando class now. So I'll write till here. If anyone have something bother them I'm willing to help.

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