June Holidays

Lots of things seemed to happen during the holidays. But it's a good thing that my parents were too busy about their business that they couldn't come home early during the holidays. Although honestly say, this holiday is kinda bored, but who cares? As long as I live my life as usual.

The first thing I did this holiday was celebrating Nyuk Theng's birthday. It was kinda boring there but thanks to her crazy bunch of friends. They are just damn funny! XD I had a good laugh there. We went to Queensbay to celebrate her birthday. There were 2 guys came to ask Dannie for her number. WTH?! What did they think they are?! How dare they came to snatch Dannie away from me?! I knew that moment I was damn angry about it! Well, I don't like guys to come near to Dannie actually. Is it out of jealousy? I wonder... Anyway, I managed to chase away all the guys and I was impressed about it myself. XD~! Unfortunately we forgot to prepare a birthday present for her... XP. Yes, we celebrated her birthday at McDonalds and there was a cheese cake there~ At first we wanted to watch a movie but seems like there weren't any movies for us to watch and that place is packed! Forget it, so one person of our gang went to Neway by himself and the rest of us walked around... And at last, we sat down at Sakae Sushi. Xi Wern reappeared after a long lost. XD! And there was a pretty sis joining us~ She's really pretty! >//_//
The next thing I did was me going to Angeline's house yesterday. Her house's really big! The ground floor can fit for our band to practice but we need those sound absorber and my electronic drum set... Which cost a lot of money! 囧!!!!!!! I guess I really need to work hard enough to have the money to buy 'cause it costs RM3900!!!!!!! O___O!!!!!!!! Need to work at Sakae Sushi already. They pay RM5 per hour for part-timers, I think it's quite a great deal. ^v^.

Oh yes, yesterday night was the best night I had~ Seems like Elmo wasn't that bad to me now~ He seemed to take interest in Dannie more~ Which I'm very happy about that~! And yesterday night Elmo was kinda foinf it on purpose to put Dannie and I beside Spider and Specs Boy... -__-... But I don't mind, 'cause I got to see Dannie and Spider together~ >//v//<~!!!! They had the same rhythm and tempo in practicing their kicks~ XD So destined huh? Elmo will be jealous though~~~! XD Way to go Dannie~ If it's Elmo or Spider I don't mind them to take you away from me~ They aren't that bad~ XD

Now, let's see what I'll do next then. Nyuk Theng wants to celebrate my birthday tomorrow, which is a little too early. My birthday's in July though. All I wish is to make everyone happy and not that bored. And I wanted to celebrate my first birthday party with Dannie alone. Well, maybe just walk along the seaside as far as we can. I don't know. XP. A for Nyuk Theng and the gang, I don't know. They wanted to go Queensbay again so I really have no idea. I'll slowly think about then, since it's still a long way~ XD

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Argh! My Head!!! DX

Long time not writing since my parents and my brother keep using the net. Now, replying Dannie's post. Hey, it's really spiders everywhere! And the monster is from the comic we bought right? It's so like him!!!! XD Too bad we can't show it to him unless we become friends... Which somehow it's possible... By the way, what you & Spider post? O.o

Now, my turn... Nowadays I've a good sleep, even sweet dreams. And Dannie and I were imagining about when we are all couple-up! Somehow those scenes keep popping out in my mind! Damn Elmo!!! I don't wanna be with him!! T^T But somehow I think he'll be a good boyfriend or even a husband though (same goes to Spider XD)! Haiz... Just hope I won't be with Elmo, even though he might be a good guy. Ya, I admit... Although he likes to tease people around and do things on purpose, he's funny and sorta' cute, patient and maybe he's just innocent, childish and doesn't hold any bad intention... Argh! I somewhat talking like I'm saying good things about him or even like him! DX

Ok, stop with the Elmo thingie... == By the way, my parents recently bullshits me. They are like trying to elt me know how uselss I am and all... Fine, so I show it out! How useless am I! Since I'm already useless in my family, might as well just admit it! However they are like giving me hope and pulling it back, repeating the same thing everyday. Today they went outstation. Yesterday night we were like thinking whether to go with them or not. I was just saying if we go with them, we just need to help them. And my dad said I was scared to help them. What?! Isn't this the fact that we gotta help you guys there?! I do help you guys! Laundry, ironing the clothes and keeping the house clean, all I do it myself! Anyway, I have enough of this!

Then suddenly, they were saying I was thinking negatively. What?! You guys were the ones who wanted me to be like that! And stop giving me all those stupid excuses about how talented I am! If I'm not then I'm not forever! To you I'm always not! I'm always changing for the bad! What did you wanna say more?! Bastard parents!

Ok, that's all... I finished destressing myself on blogging.

By the way, Dannie, thanks for sharing the Taekwondo knowledge. I love Taekwondo too! XD So long~

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I'm dead = Ka eh si nia... (hokkien)

First of all, thank to Dannie for posting a long post for me to read through about my nightmare. By the way, Dannie's getting cheeky! Dannie & Spider will be together! XD Revenge~ Enjoy and get real Dannie~ Haha! XD

Nowadays we are talking about our Taekwondo lessons. Somehow what Dannie said and imagined came true! As you can see from Dannie's blog, we talked about Elmo having a car in black and red. Yesterday, Master rode a bike in black and red! And maybe it's Elmo's! XD I can't stop laughing about that if it's true! Well, now I hope what she just wrote won't happen...

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Scary Thoughts

Nothing much to say nowadays. Everything just went on as normal except my emotions are very unstable. I don't know what causes my emotion to be so unstable. Sometimes I'll have all those crazy thoughts, sometimes even thinking of doing evil stuffs. Like at the moment I'll say this girl is a good girl, but the next moment I'll be thinking about killing her! D: I don't wanna be like that.. T^T NONONO!!!!!

This morning I woke up at 7.30am. Despite of sleepiness, I went back to bed. I dreamt of something really horrible. It seemed so real! It was like it happened!

I dreamt of me seeinga doctor in Island Hospital, Penang. I went out of the ward, and I saw my parents were talking to the doctor. I could only see through what they were doing through the space between the door and the wall. I heard very clearly but I have forgotten what the doctor told my parents. I suspected that in ym dream, the doctor was saying I had diagnosed a brain cancer! DX My parents stayed emotionless. When they went out of the doctor's office, they were all smiling, they thought I didn't know anything about it. They tried to hide it. Whereas me, I tried hiding that I don't know anything.

The next day, they brought to a mall. I'm not sure what mall is that, but it's kinda familiar. Well, they brought me to buy what I wanted. I asked for a clothing. It was white in colour, like angels in the movie we used to watch. After shopping, my parents took me to the hospital. I walked around and walked up the staircase to the top floor. It was an open-air compound, very breezy. I could feel the wind blowing my hair and it splattered on my face. Then I saw Dannie. O.o "I'm going to die you know? The doctor is going to inject a type of fluid in my bloodstream and put me into an eternal sleep," I told Dannie. She just looked out to the sky, she said nothing and stayed emotionless. Then I continued, "Will the injection be painful? Where am I going to after the sleep? What is it like after being injected?" I asked her. "I don't know..." she replied. Both of us stayed quiet for a long time.

I went down the stairs and back into my ward. While I sat down on my sickbed, the door slammed suddenly. I saw the doctor came in with my parents. The nurse behind them was carrying a tray with a sryinge, cottons and bottles of fluids. The doctor told me to stay calm. He grabbed my left arm and applied the fluid on my arm. The sryinge sinked into my skin and I could feel the fluid in the sryinge flowing. After a few seconds he pulled out the sryinge and turned my body to let my head rest on the pillow. I was wearing my new clothes. I saw my parents looking at me. I stared at them, I felt that my heart pumped faster and faster, I couldn't breathe easily. Slowly my eyes couldn't open widely as usual. The image of my parents in front of me was getting blur. I let go myself and shut my eyes and blood flowed out from my eyes, ears, nostrils and my mouth.

That's the end of my dream. I'm dead, badly. I woke up after it ended. My body wasn't wet. It wasn't frightening. The frightening part is when you think back again, it's so real that you can feel everything in your dream, and the dream had been repeated twice... One last year which my brother had a dream about me having brain cancer and passed away, and now is this morning when I slept back after waking up.

I don't know what to say. My feelings can't be expressed by words. It really freaks me out... What's the sign of this dream? What is it trying to tell me...? I don't know...

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为什么？！

这世界好神秘，太多的问号要让我去琢磨，太多的事情要我去忍耐。太多的太多，我实在压抑不住我的心情了！

每天放学回家，我一定要洗衣服、晒衣服、烫衣服，全都是我的工作！我好无奈！我哥只是要看一看水壶里的水还有滚水。他工作那么简单，为什么我却要做那么多？！为什么？！原本爸爸告诉我，哥哥会负责抹地，不过怎么久了怎么都没看过他在做呢？！这世界好不公平噢！我好想哭但始终还是无法抒发我的感情！我一再又一再的忍耐，一天又一天的等待，世界何时才会公平呢…？

为什么我会那么的放不开你？为什么我还是无法忘记你？为什么你要一再给我希望与期待？太多的疑问，太多对你的爱与悔恨，我应该怎样才能琢磨得到你呢…？请你告诉我，请你不要一直给我有种错觉你还是爱我的。为什么你身边的那个女生会拥有你？为什么你拥有了她，你还那么贪心要拥有我呢？为什么你要这样伤害我？为什么当天是我们的最后一封讯息呢？为什么过了那天我们再也没联络了呢？为什么？！为什么…？！为什么…

今天我也快抓狂了！为什么你总是要告诉我关于男生如此被你吸引？！为什么你总是要这样子炫耀，让全世界的人都知道你的魅力有多大？！为什么你要装出一幅无辜的样子？！为什么全部人就看不出来你心里在想些什么？！为什么你要装出一副可爱的样子招蜂引蝶？！在你脸上你一直显出你厌恶男生在你周围绕，但在你心里你是如此想要吸引男生的注意力！你想否认吗？！一看就看得出！你根本就是这样的人！如果你真的那么讨厌的话，为什么还要做出那些会吸引男生注意力的一举一动呢？！你太假了！

承认吧！你根本就是这样的一个人！你本性不是这样的！而且你每次告诉我的东西你都拿不出证据！我希望男生不会看你外表而爱上你！你根本就没有显露过你的真面目！我觉得只有我跟你相处久了才看得出来！

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Taekwondo Mania! Part 3

Yesterday was a fun but really 'oh-my-god' Taekwondo lesson! We got to spar with anybody in the class. Let me repeat, spar with ANYBODY!!!! DX Yes, and I got to spar with the black belts.

Before the sparring, we were practicing our techniques for our sparring. The Elmo kept correcting me and gave lots of comments about my position of those techniques, ISH! WTH! I know he's good, I admit, but he doesn't need to keep commenting my every steps right?! Argh... >.<

Luckily sparring practice no need to see him! However, I still got to meet with Mr Bald and Specs Boy! Yeekz! >.< I don't know is it my imagination or what, they didn't really hit me or kick me, they let me go first and didn't really try to fight back. As if they are looking down on me or what?! Anyway, I'll show them that I'm not that weak! And yes, I have shown them by kicking the asshole and the tummy of Mr Bald, but for Specs Boy, we barely hit each other... Weird... =.=

Today at school Dannie and I were complaining about the Taekwondo lesson yesterday night. Spider sprained her leg and now she's temporarily handicap. Aikz... =.= Stupid Spider! Now I'm temporarily Dannie's clutch. Just now when we were going up to chemistry lab, I carried her up but I was laughing so I couldn't focus my strength, so I just carried her for going up one floor. XP

About baboon... It's kinda quiet... Don't know why... Maybe she found her banana. XD But the thing is, we are in Spider and Elmo's world today! >.<>.<

By the way, my friend, Angeline formed a band and I'm in~ I'm the drummer~ XD Yay~ Finally I've a band with close friends~ So, wish our band good luck, cooperative and have a bright future. Our band name for now is Paranoia, I'm not sure we're going to change or not. But for now, Paranoia Go Go Go! XD

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Today IS A Fairytale!

Today I went to school early again. We gotta clean the school. Heard that this activity is nationalized by the government. Well, we can't help it but to come to school without saying 'no'.

I went to Dannie's house then we went to school together. At first we were happy that baboon wasn't there. We thought so... So we were like very relaxed. Suddenly she shrieked beside us, very close to us at the compound we used to have our daily meeting. I guess no way we are going to make her disappear, and it's so no way that we will try to avoid it! Why should we?! We aren't doing anything wrong to her! Is this baboon who likes to simply shriek at people!

Anyway, today our teacher-in-charge of our team is Kuna. Be grateful that it wasn't Kala! XD We cleaned our own classroom. Supposing we need to clean another classroom, but we screwed up so we swapped with the other team which they supposed to clean our class. XP And now our classroom is squeaky clean~ ^^ We finished so fast that we sat down chit-chatting and Dannie and I taught Katrina Taekwondo. She said she might be coming to our center on Monday during the holidays after our 1st Mid-Term Exam. XD Welcome to Elmo's world Katrina~ XDDD

Finally school dismissed, and we need to stay in school for awhile to snap some photos for the sivic project... After that Dannie and I walked our seperate ways home. By the way, I did brought along my handphone so I texted my mum to pick me up right away~ Haha! XD

Erm... Here's the shocking news for myself... My ex asked me whether I wanna be with me again or not?! O.o! What the heck?! Well, I can say... He doesn't even mean it. 'Cause I asked him about his girlfriend or maybe ex... He keep avoiding the question and now didn't reply my message. Great! That's why I hate guys! Really hate them! If you have someone with you, please love them whole-heartedly! Idiotic boys! Boys always like to have lots of girls by them, and then they will slowly play them, one by one! I hate them!!!!!

I went for drum lesson today. I was waiting for someone in the room so that I can start my lesson. Guess what, I saw a 20-year-old lady (I guess...), with lady-like dress ups in the room! OMFG!!! She looks so matured and so lady-like, not like me, but she learns drum?! Oh oh oh... =.= Can't imagine. But one thing I know is, she's a newbie. So... Good luck newbie... Drum isn't that easy as it looks.

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