I miss you

  I don't know what did I do to have such a miserable 2nd semester of my college life. Every thing just happened suddenly and I feel like I'm going to break apart soon.

  TM has been sticking to a jerk's ass recently and it hurts to see that our friend is following the wrong person. I mean, it's not wrong that she likes someone but out of all people why THAT jerk?! D: She can do better than this. Well, I guess they just suit each other.

  What I know now is TM isn't the person we used to know. I feel so hurt when I knew things that she did that hurt all of us as close friends. I even cried in his arms when I heard all these horrible things she did. But to be honest, I don't fully believe in what I heard. Well don't get me wrong, it's just I want to know the truth and I wish to hear all of these from TM herslef. I seriously she will just come up to us and say it.

  Well, when the time comes, I seriously don't know how to react to that. Will I forgive her or not? I don't know... If what I knew were true, then I possibly might not forgive her. Or maybe forgive her but I woudn't forget what she had done. But honestly, I really do miss her. It was like 2 weeks or so since she followed that piece of shit around. How I hope that jerk didn't do or say anything to her that could change her.

  Actually after I have calmed down, I was thinking maybe she did care for us. Most of the time she was thinking of us just she was talking something bad about us behind our backs. I'm still not sure what she had done but if this was really true, then I can just say this might be her way of showing that she cares for us. She spent so much time with her till she can see our flaws and observed us all these 6 months.

  If that jerk really did do something to her, I'll stab him a thousand times and make him feel the pain we expereinced. I might even hit her but will still give her a helping hand after that. TM, we are always here for you if you need us back although we might hate you for what you've done. But, feel free to come home anytime. We know you have your own hardships and we hope that you can share with us so that we can help you. You really don't need to get other people's reaction like that jerk to hear you out and say something nice that poison you. If you fall, we'll be your safe zone behind catching you from the fall. We miss you TM. We really miss you. Especially WL... She cried for you so much. Please, don't hurt her any further...

It's all my fault

   Hey peeps, I just came back from Anime Festival Asia 2011 Malaysia yesterday. It was really good! Better than my expectation. Maybe I did over degraded Malaysia's standard at first. Actually, I went there just to see KANAME and have fun at the maid or butler cafe. So in the end I fulfilled my wish. XD I saw KANAME and I went to the butler cafe. :) Unfortunately I didn't get to enjoy the service in the maid cafe as the queue was too long. /~\...

  However, many things happened that only the both of us (not going to mention the name) know what's going on. I don't know why things will turn out that way. But I feel like because of me, I made him this way and now he's trying to stay a distance away from me. Sighs... I wanted the club committee to be a happy group of people but I don't know why it ended up this way now. /~\...

  Oh yes, and today I went out to have a movie with my friends and they were talking about one of our buddies that she's now getting further away from us cause it seems like she's following a guy more than she's hanging out with us. We are seriously worried about her cause that guy isn't good at all! D: Well, after what we discussed, I finally realized that they were really worried about me when I was once very close with a guy, who is admired by an insane girl who'll "kill" anybody in her way to get him. I'm sorry guys... To let you guys worried so much about me previously. But seriously, I'm fine. It's nothing. :)

  Well, I do hope it's nothing. Cause actually just now he just asked me a very weird question. 'If I told you that I like as in a romantic way, not the brother-sister love, how will you react?' he asked. But he knew what I'm going to answer anyway. Well, it's not I'm trying to think too much but what if he really likes me in that way...?

  Gosh... Everything's changing around me... /~\...

爱生活

  吵架后和好的感觉真的无法形容… 就是觉得心忽然轻得要从身体里飘出来… 两个亲友吵架其实蛮正常的… 吵了一会儿就会和好… 就那么简单~ 当然一开始还是有点尴尬… 不过慢慢地又适应了，变成以往那样吵吵闹闹~ 可是我还是希望你不要因为我的话而放弃她，好吗?

  老实说… 我自己也不知道为什么我会认为我对你有超越朋友界限的感情… 可能是我很渴求有个人对我关心?! D: 不会吧! 或许是荷尔蒙的错… =,=... 可是当我冷静下来… 我还是觉得我们不可能在一起啦! 神经的! D:

  朋友，现在我们像以往这样一起疯疯癫癫的… 我已经满足了… ^^

  至于其他人… 谢谢你们在我低潮的时候给我的鼓励和关怀… ^^

  当然，这五个月的学员生活真的真的… 让我最感动的是我这第一组朋友…! :D 如果没有你们我真的不知道我的学员生活会过得怎样… 这就是缘分给我的礼物吧? ^^ 每次想到你们就会给自己一丝微笑… 有事的时候一想到你们我就觉得很安心… 因为我知道我们永远都会在一起… 我知道我们都会一起努力，一起付出… 有你们在我什么都不怕了… 就算有时会遇到挫折，还是受到别人的威胁，我都不怕…我知道你们会在后面支持我… 谢谢你们… 认识你们，我开始爱自己的生活… 甚至知道我生存下来是因为到我人生最拼的时刻我会遇见你们… 你们给我了勇气+欢笑… 我真的很爱你们…! TwT...

  Jo Anne, Wey Lyn, Tze Ming, Miyumi, Cheng Yee, Jing Yao, Sze Yuan, Mindy, Kimberly, Daniel, 你们都在我的人生里留下了意义… <3