No more...

  Long time not posting anything here. I decided to write something here cause it's faster to type in English or Mandarin here rather than typing Japanese (which I'm not very good at it yet) on Ameblo.

  It's been 5 months since my college life started. Things have changed within me and around me. I started my Taekwondo lesson somewhere near my house since last year end. So no more Xing Long and I seldom contact  my high school best friend cause I think I just couldn't wait for her anymore.

  I started to move on after what happened during my high school years. But for some reason, I started to have feelings for someone... Which I don't wish to happen. He's not my type of guy either but I just accidentally liked him. However, I never tell him anything about this. I just realized i liked him recently cause whenever he talks about another who he might give her a chance to unlock his heart. I would always act as if I don't mind and I'll support him.

  We're like brother and sister. We quarrel everyday but everything's just a joke. We just feel happy the way things are now. But one day he told me he gave a chance to a girl for her to unlock his heart, I started to feel all so shocked and down at the same time. I didn't want to admit the feelings I have for him, until now. I'm now trying to just keep this feeling to the corner of my mind and just tell my mind and my heart that none of these happen. I just don't want to break our friendship. And I swear to myself I won't feel anything like this anymore cause it's just a nuisance to me. Romantic relationships just never ever work out on me. Either it's the guy isn't interested in me or the guy leaves me after he found another better girl. I had enough of this. No more!

  So just to speak out here, after this post, I'll end my feelings right here, right now!