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Thursday, May 31, 2012

一瞬间…

  这短短的五个月里我认识了你… 还记得一开始只是知道彼此的存在… 不过缘分让我们认识了对方… 当然我没有后悔过我们现在的友情已经是到话不用多说的地步。你我都知道对方下一句会说什么… 反应会是什么… 喜欢什么… 不喜欢什么… 当然有时还是琢磨不到对方… 不过还是要谢谢缘分吧我们拉近距离~ 虽然曾经吵架过… 但我一直坚信这只是把我们的友情变得更强的过程…


  还记得第一次吵架… 我在电话上哭着,挑战了我对你的信任… 我哭,是因为当我给你那么多机会誊清自己,你都不要争取那个机会… 你反而认为我就像其他人… 不想让我知道比较好… 但最痛的,其实是你对我的温柔… 我发现自己在无理取闹的时候,你竟然赖你自己伤害了我… 就是因为你对我越好,我越理所当然地接受你对我的宽容… 谢谢你…

  现在是我们第二次吵架了… 或许是我太迟发现自己竟然被感情控制得那么糟糕,让你胡思乱想了… 或许是我一时心急,我的霸占心又再次被启动… 因为我一时想太多,我真的好害怕会失去你这个好哥哥… 我也不想要你忘了我这个小妹… 我希望你虽然有了别人,你还是会记得我… 希望我们还会见面… 见面时还会像现在一样有说不完的话… ^^ 不过你反而觉得你失去的那些亲友们是因为你是个喜新厌旧的人才离开你… 虽然现在很想告诉你这些,但我相信今夜的你是不会听进去了~ /~\... 不过我真的很想知道… 为什么连续这两次的吵架,我的话你都听进去了就乱想,然后就被我的话影响你对你自己的看法… 我真的很不明白…

  我真的不希望这次的吵架会毁了我们的友情… 拜托了…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

No more...

  Long time not posting anything here. I decided to write something here cause it's faster to type in English or Mandarin here rather than typing Japanese (which I'm not very good at it yet) on Ameblo.

  It's been 5 months since my college life started. Things have changed within me and around me. I started my Taekwondo lesson somewhere near my house since last year end. So no more Xing Long and I seldom contact  my high school best friend cause I think I just couldn't wait for her anymore.

  I started to move on after what happened during my high school years. But for some reason, I started to have feelings for someone... Which I don't wish to happen. He's not my type of guy either but I just accidentally liked him. However, I never tell him anything about this. I just realized i liked him recently cause whenever he talks about another who he might give her a chance to unlock his heart. I would always act as if I don't mind and I'll support him.

  We're like brother and sister. We quarrel everyday but everything's just a joke. We just feel happy the way things are now. But one day he told me he gave a chance to a girl for her to unlock his heart, I started to feel all so shocked and down at the same time. I didn't want to admit the feelings I have for him, until now. I'm now trying to just keep this feeling to the corner of my mind and just tell my mind and my heart that none of these happen. I just don't want to break our friendship. And I swear to myself I won't feel anything like this anymore cause it's just a nuisance to me. Romantic relationships just never ever work out on me. Either it's the guy isn't interested in me or the guy leaves me after he found another better girl. I had enough of this. No more!

  So just to speak out here, after this post, I'll end my feelings right here, right now!