OMG!!

Recently i'm car-pooling with GuoHong, one of my black belt senior in my taekwondo lesson. Fyi, that's not the arrangement I want though. And after Wednesday night fetching him home from taekwondo lesson, my mum came to like him a lot. She sais that he's very matured, as a lower 6 student. Sighs... I don't know what'll happen next after my mum takes interest in knowing more about him. Is my doomsday coming? I wonder...

And the worsy thing now is, XingLong saw me talking to GuoHong and becae moody after that. This happened on Monday night. XingLong seemed bothered. Maybe it's 'cause I disturbed the class since I asked GuoHong about who's fetching me back home after the lesson. If I'm not mistaken, he heard it. 'Cause he just looked up at me when i asked. Sighs... This is getting me really bothered. I don't want him to misunderstand anything between me and GuoHong! As you know I like him, not GuoHong!! D: after the lesson I was talking to Dannie and waiting for GuoHong to finish off tidying up the place. I was waiting for him by his car. I thought he'll be coming out soon but who knows that XingLong came out first!! D: we looked at each other. When GuoHong came he turned to his car. Does he hate me now...? I don't want this to happen!! If he really feel bothered about this he should just tell me and I'm sure that that's the sign that's he's telling me that he likes me. I just wated to tell him that i like him!! I don't have the guts to make the first move that's why I'm waiting.

The thing now is... He doesn't smile at me anymore. He didn't even really talk to me. These made me started to miss his cheerful smile and the days we kept arguing. Oh no... I don't want this to get worsen but my mum just said in front of me and GuoHong that next time I should sit in front, means right beside him!! D: this is making the situation worse!! Dr. Dannie help me... T^T... I really don't know what to do now...