'D'onkey~

It's been a long time I didn't update my blog~ Well, lots of things happened. Now time passes until now left 1 week to PMR! I'm hell excited!!!!! ><>< NO!!!!!! But it's ok... From now onwards I got to practice my debate skills with him, it will be fun~! By the way, I will apprecaite him. I'm sorry that I hurt him, I just feel that I'm not good enough. I don't have the rights to blame him for everything or even complain anything. I'm not good enough to complain anything. Of course, I will apprecaite him from now. Today I'm knid of insane. REALLY!!!!!! I somehow fall in love with the answer 'D' in objective questions~! Haha! Maybe it let me think of a papaya donkey~ If you want to know what is it, kindly ask me here~ Hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!! Anyway, good luck to all~ Papaya donkey~~~~ ^^

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Once In A Lifetime~~~~~ for me... ==

Sorry again for not writing on time. Exams are really running me nuts! Well, now just left for Monday...

That Thursday it's my first time eating a RM1 peppermint ice-cream. Haha! At first I admit it taste so colouring-ful and flavouring-ful, but after a few times of biting the ice-cream it tastes quite good~ Hehe! ( I used to bite ice-cream, not lick...) Well, maybe the chocolate chips on the ice-cream is making it nicer... Who knows? Nevermind that, the conclusion is, it's nice~! ^^ And I'm the fastest to finish eating the ice-cream... Haha!

Right, yesterday, lots of things happened. Nevermind for the rushing Mathematics paper 1, yesterday's are kind of boring because there's a lot of time left! Haha! But this will make the teachers keep watching me. Every teachers know that I'm the famous 'sleepy cat' in school. I can sleep in any condition. So even I just dug down my head, those teachers will come over to my place and knock my table. Actually I didn't sleep!!!!! When I really sleep they don't want to wake me up, what a joke... ==

And, sorry to him that I felt so unsafe yesterday. It was a misunderstanding. Don't keep that in mind ok? I'm really sorry that I will feel suspicious of you. I told you maybe because I have this concept that she can attract anybody since she is cute and pretty in any ways. I just lack of confidence when I think of her. She is better than me in many ways, I admire her but I can't be like her. I am just scared you will leave. Anyway, I'm sorry for what happened yesterday night. Lastly, I can just say, I love you.

For today, I finally deleted that Friendtser blog. Actually I don't want to delete it, there is too much memories in it, but for him, I deleted it. Second brother-in-law keep annoys him so I decided to delete it. Now, nothing happens to him~ After deleting the blog, I feel that something heavy in my heart is finally off the hook. Haha! Farewell, my past.

An Enjoyable Lie... Exam!!!!!!

Lots of things happened yesterday. I can't write it on time because of recent exams which makes me running wild around piles of books. Anyway, just want to share what happened yesterday here~

It was exciting to hang out with friends for the first time this year. To tell you the truth, I didn't tell my parents about it. In fact, I told them I was going to Ching Chun's house. If they want to prove it at least I have Ching Chun here with me~ Haha! Anyway, the other two boys which are going out with us had arrived there at 10.15am. I told Ching Chun about it and she rushed out of the house without even drying her hair up! Damn those two, they made us rushed madly.

When I rushed to the bus stop nearby, I was kind of nervous. After a few minutes, 3 buses passed by, and... Where is Ching Chun?!!! I was extremely scared!! I'm alone!!! Suddenly, my phone blinked, since I put my phone into silent mode. It was a number with the prefix 019, a number not in my list. I answered the phone, and a cute, childish voice... Or even angel-like? O.o It's Ching Chun!!!! She said she arrived the bus stop, but I didn't see her!!!! That was the frightening part! Conclusion is... I waited at the wrong bus stop... == I quickly ran to the bus stop, and saw her now~ ^^

Arrived Queensbay... (no excitement...) Started walking, boringly... At first I was excited to see Ching Chun and Jiun Hau~! Haha!!!! They were so cute that day!!! Both of us keep on giving them advices and chances. And... There is once, their hands were so closed!!!! I was hoping for something but unfortunately... Nothing happened... I can't deny that I didn't hold hands with him. Just nervous when I hold his hands for the first time, so I let go his hands for a moment.

After inside the cold cinema, we rushed out to the seaside outside Queensbay Mall. It was warm and cozy~~~!!!! And you know what? Both of them walked together~ For that very moment, I hold hands with him again, for a long time... Somehow feel that I don't want to let go... I'm sorry for that selfishness... After a long time, we decided to leave, and when I went to call Ching Chun, she didn't find me behind her. She talked with Jiun Hau in a very romantic way~ Haha!!!! I'm really impressed~

Ok, it's time for me ti study now... Write till here... ==

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~Tarot Time~

I opened up this treasure chest of mine, and BOOM! Tarot~~~~!!!!! I'm excited even though I knew it, I just bought it yesterday. Haha! Actually I bought it just because I like the computer graphics created by all these so very talented graphic designers. I so admire their hand work you know? So DAMN pretty!!! (sorry if I have any offend to those who is sensitive about this word) Anyway, it's all just about the graphics...

As I saw this book, is full with the full image of those triumph cards~!!!! Fantastic! Or... fanatic...?! Well, I admit I'm a little too obssesed with it till I bought this with a price of RM25!!! My money~~~~ T-T Gosh!!!!!! I can't even believe that I bought it!!!! Maybe it's the graphic that is pleasing me, or my friend said that she wanted it for a long time and now it's a dream come true, and I borrowed her money to buy for her. And maybe from there, I got influenced easily by her, but I won't blame her for this. Haha! The important thing I got to think now is money can be back any minute if I find it... T-T kind of heart-breaking situation here...

Now if this box of tarot, I read about the stories about these characters of the triumph cards. It's amazing you know? This isn't stories and myths! This is HISTORY!!! Is something happening in the golden-ages!!! Interesting to see but just imagine it, how complicated, headache... ARGH!!!!!! T-T Nevermind that... And guess what? It encourages me to know more about history! Don't ask me why but that is the fact! It makes me interested in history! There is lots of them connected to the times in Egypt, Roman Times and The Europe!!

It's telling you how are us, homo sapiens are engage with the universe. No need anybody to say I knew this theory since I was a small girl because I was very obssesed with mstyreious things and discoveries. Especially something magical but true. However people thinks that I'm a strange girl. So somehow I stopped this interest quite long but now here it comes~! Haha! Mad-girl Ashley is revived again~!

Ok, now, if you are that person that supposed to read this, please pay full attention. You know who I am talking about... I know you are still wondering about that thing. Acutally somehow you make me not sure now... Sigh... But I can't do anything about that. I feel guilty to make you feel that somehow. But this is serious problem ok? I think we got to think all over again. I say again, trust is the most important of all in this bond. I'm sorry to make you feel so unsafety and uneasy.

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I'm sorry although I'm hurt

A note here to say that from this post onwards I'm using English to write my blog. Sorry for those readers who think that it's hard to read or hard to understand. The reason is using English is easier for me because my Mandarin is not that good... Sorry to say that, I know as a Chinese we shouldn't be weak in Chinese but that is the fact! My Mandarin is so bad!

Ok... Back to the topic... Today is extremely HURT!!! DAMN HURT!!!!!!!! T-T But I can't do anything about it. Even though I shouted aloud to the whole world, it remians the same until he appears. Don't ask me why, but somehow it's very magical. I'm also shocked to realise that everytime.

But when today I just knew about what they did at school on Wednesday. I know it's wrong to say her like that. I know, to you they are the worst. I know that you hate people to call you by that, but they can't because of this and give me another nickname?! And that is a very rude nickname you know?! Even though I have a useless left hand, I have confident that I am better than you! Especially YOU! You said we are close friends yesterday! But how can you hurt your close friend in this manner?! And this is nothing to say as a joke!!!!! Most importantly, you guys can't hurt my friends!!!!!!! This is a serious mistake!!!!!! If you guys still hurting any of my friends, I will never let you off the hook easily! But this time I will forgive you guys, because they said they don't mind now. But if I caught it red handed another time, I will kill any of you...

Because of this, I quarrelled with him. I know I can't blame everything on him. I'm sorry that I'm acting incredibly childish and fired-up. Maybe it's because I can't accept it, but I was trying to hide that feeling from my friends so that they won't be worry about this. From here, I found out how hard is it just to pretend to be smiling in front of my friends while I'm hurt. If I make my friends worry then I'm not a good friend. Even though friends are the ones who share the same feelings with us, but I think it's not it! But Danicia, if you are reading this, don't feel uneasy because I'm always here for you, I will be stronger and stronger.

After the quarrel, I found out that it's hard to leave you. Even though I'm angry, but I'm unable to treat you as usual. I don't know the reason, just know that you are a special person. Whenever I'm in a bad situation, you stand by me and the only person can make me settle down. Erm... I think my friends can do that too... But the feeling is different. Just can't find a suitable way to tell you or explain it. Anyway, hope you can understand...

Last but not least~ There is a good news to my friends. As you guys knew about my left hand. Now is curable~! Hehe! I'm thankful to the doctors who are in charged of this and the research on this. Most importantly, friends and family who support all the way~ I'm sorry for being a disturbance to everybody, from right now I will move forward and prove that I'm someone who can do lots of miracles~

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惊喜！嘿！

这几天是怎么了？忽然，一。。。二。。。三！碰！！！哇~烟花啊~~~~~！！！囧 眼花了。。。==

一个接一个，在我耳旁吹过。本来是秘密，后来还是爆料了。。。太“好”了！！！呵呵呵。。。== 为什么你们到现在才告诉我？！！！！都已经三个星期了，现在才告诉你这个好朋友？！！！算了。。。反正我也隐瞒着你们嘛。。。==

不过！恭喜我们的清纯同学哦~~ ^^ 真的好兴奋哦~~~~！！！哈哈！！你要感谢我介绍给你哦~~~！！！！哈哈哈哈！！！！

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